The Past is Forgotten

Chapter Five

Dean, Cas, and I started are way to where we last heard from Azazel and any sort of family murder.
Dean said that there was something different about this family. For example. The mom was on the roof, the dad had a broken arm and was shot. Which was kind of weird because Azazel was a demon and a demon doesn't meed a gun to kill someone.
"Sammy, I mean Sam I think Azazel did that, I think he wants to fight. Something about these deaths. I've had dreams where I see mom die burning on the roof and then I see you getting something and you see dad dead on the ground. He was shot Sam. I think Azazel has seen my dreams. This is where I draw the line, this isn't your fight. He knows my thoughts Sam, he knows my weaknesses. You're my weakness Sam."Dean looked down at the ground so I couldn't see him cry.
"Dean.. I'm not leaving you and that's that." Dean looked up at me with tears running down his face. I was surprised he was actually crying, Dean doesn't cry. Now that I think about it, I never really asked him why he was crying, I wonder if it was because he knew he was going to die and now the only two people he loves are going to die as well.
"Now no chick flick moments Dean." I smile trying to lighten the mood and maybe getting him to smile again. I haven't seen Dean really smile for over a year. I don't know what happened to Dean this past year, but it wasn't good.
Dean smiles, he finally smiles. I smile back.
"Let's get this show on the road." Dean smiles and looks at me and Cas.
"Okay what are we waiting for.?" Cas says but this time Cas didn't smile, he just looked at us dead in the face, as if he knew he was going to die.
I think I'm the only person in this group that thinks he going to live through this fight. Well I was right. Why am I the one to live, Cas was an angel of the Lord and Dean is a good man. Dean saves people, he's changed the world, so why should I be the one to live when Cas and Dean were great people. I've made so many mistakes and because of that, I deserve to go to hell. I shouldn't go into the details because if I do, I won't be able to live with myself because it just reminds me of why deans dead and why it's all my fault. Well let's get back to the story, and finish this so I can go.