A Second Chance

life sucks!

I hate men. They're all the same. They can never appreciate the good in others especially with the one's who love them.

I'm done with love.
It's all a lie to be true.
No one will appreciate the true love.

I understood that in a hard way possible.
Men are animals. they don't have feelings like other normal human beings.
They are like monkeys which jumps from one branch to another at every chance they get.

Sometimes I've thought to myself that I'm not good enough to be Loved by anyone. It was a nightmare to not be good enough to others.

All I wanted was to love a person with all of my heart and never get hurt by that one person who owns my whole damn heart.

But all wishes can never come true, right?
I may not be perfect but I'm in my own way possible.
If he cannot see that then it's his fault not mine.

I was a little girl when I pledged my heart to him.
I was immature but I was very well sure of one thing that my heart beats only for him and him alone but what he did to me in return.

He broke my heart into a million pieces which I could never patch it back together.

Trust me I tried.
so yeah, I'm done with men.
I'm never going to allow anyone to play with my broken heart again.
Let alone him.
Never again.

It's been six long years but it still stings like a fresh salted wound.

"Calla? Calla? Are you listening to me?",
I snapped out of my trailing thoughts.
"I'm sorry Andrew I can't be that person to you. I'm done with love. I'm sorry to hurt you but it's better now than later", I said with full determination.

He cannot have hopes especially towards a person like me who's beyond broken. It will ruin him just like it ruined me and I don't want to put him through what I've gone through in my life.

He's so hurt but he tried to mask it with a not so subtle smile but I could see it clearly on his face.
His facade cannot fool me.

"Look calla I wouldn't lie that I'm not hurt even a little but I'll fight, I'll fight for you, I'll fight for us. I don't care how much long it takes to win you over. I'll not stop.", Andrew said with a strain in his voice which made my stone cold heart leap a little.

"Then you are even more foolish than me  Andrew and trust me when I say this" I gestured my hands towards him and myself , "this will never happen and If I were you I wouldn't be a fool to hope on to something that's never gonna happen in a million year".
I finished with a voice not wavering even a little bit.

"Well you cannot stop me, calla", Andrew said with what sounded like a strong determination in his voice and he stood up and left without saying another word.

I stared at now empty place which was previously occupied by Andrew, my mind zoned out completely with the thoughts of my past and how it hold me from moving on into my future.

How did I let this happen?

How could I?

I was sure of what my future holds but somehow I managed to get sucked into another drama.

Wasn't one drama enough for this lifetime?

If you're wondering who I'm.

Well, I'm calla.

And my life sucks.

Author's note:

Thank you for choosing my story and I hope that I won't disappoint you all.
Stay tuned❤️.