Elements : Book Two

Chapter Two

There is nothing more calming than darkness. You feel at ease as it starts blanketing you into soothing talons of cold and blindness. You want to fight it, to set yourself free, but only later do you realize that, it only locks you in. The only way to escape is by surrendering. And as darkness starts slipping into your lungs, suffocating you, you break free. Through pain and death can one find true freedom.

That's what they have been telling me all along. And I have kept ignoring it. I did not realize the importance of looking into the eyes of the fear that keeps eating you alive. Destiny has told me that one day the time would come, where I would be left alone with my monsters and I would have to deal with them in my way.

And now, sitting alone in the cell, filled with the voices, of people, I cannot see. I know that they keep watching me, writing down every single, little movement that I make. I slide down the wall, staring at the another one with wide eyes. I have lost all hope of leaving the cell in legal way. I have lost all hope of returning to the normal life, I once had back with my parents.

I have never truly wanted to be part of this world, filled with magic and people, who abuse it. I miss the time, I have spent with Layla and Rebecca. I miss the time, that I used to spend with Levi. I know that he turned out to be a villain, traitor of some sort. But he never did harm me before coming here. He never put me under any risk. He took care of me, he was loving and he was there, whenever I was feeling down.

"Hey, princess." He smiles down at me as he leans forward, gently kissing my forehead.

"Don't worry, love...Everything is going to be alright." He whispers in my ear as hugs me tighter in his arms.

"I will always love you. No matter what. I will always be there for you." Levi whispers against my hair as he puts a gentle kiss on my head. His arms are embracing me tightly, making me feel calm and confident.

I can feel tears cascading down my face, making my vision blurry, anger blowing inside of me. I can feel my insides burning as I watch the bare wall in front of me, letting different memories of Levi slide in front of me.

I am aware that I have made my choice, when I refused to go with him, when I sided with people from the Academy and fought against him. I know that I let all the bridges burn between us. But I still cannot make myself regret what I have done. I miss him. But more than him, I miss who I was with him. I miss myself, the carefree life, I used to have.

If I could, I would go back. I would forget about the hidden part of the world, I would return to my normal, average life, filled with gossip and boys and girls and nightmares of a sort. I would gladly trade all the powers inside of me for a single normal day.

I wipe away the fallen tears, remembering how closely monitored I am. I cannot let them see how I am breaking piece by piece. They are not the ones, who break me, but they are the ones to witness it.

"You could be unbeatable." I look around in the darkness, spotting glowing Selene standing in the middle of nothing. Her hair is floating behind her, her eyes are shining silver as she looks at me with disappointed glance.

"I have not heard from you for a long time." I click my tongue, approaching her. My steps are slow, unsure of themselves. I have been here before, the darkness of mind, where Selene visits for talks. And one can never be too careful in a place like that. "You told me that you would not come, unless I made a choice."

"And I see, you still are choosing to be defeated." She looks at me with anger blazing in her eyes. I can feel the rage transferring to my body, setting it on fire. "Cassidy, you have to accept what is yours." Her voice softens, her eyes holding warmth inside of them. "You have your fate to fulfill."

I don't say anything. Instead I turn around, looking around the filled nothingness. I can feel anger rising inside of me. I can feel tears filling my eyes, threatening to spill.

"What if I want something else for myself?" I whisper in a meek tone. I turn around, facing her and her disappointment. "What if I do not want to fulfill whatever fate has in store for me?" I continue mumbling, tears streaming down my face.

"We don't choose our fate, Cassidy..."

The cell is cold. Selene's warmth is lacking. I can feel part of me missing. The part, that Selene can control. The part that is one of the most essentials. Her message is clear. I have to make a choice, that benefits her in order to gain the rest of my self.

The cell is cold. They keep making it colder and colder, wanting to break me even harder. But before I was able to hold warmth within myself, now I cannot even do that.

We don't choose our fate, Cassidy...

She keeps on calling me my full name, as if she wants to imply at something.

I know that I have been denied of truth before. I know that there are many things that people are hiding from me, things that will alter my whole being. I lean against the cell wall. I close my eyes, leaning against the cell wall, taking a deep breath.

I feel overwhelmed. I feel like suffocating, like there is not enough air in the cell to help me live. It happened before, too. The last time Selene visited, I could hardly restrain myself. I could barely hold the power raging inside of me, begging to let them free.

And just like before, I have to hold it in. I have to live with the constant pain to make sure that people, that enclosed me here are kept alive. She told me. Selene warned me that if I let the raging powers go, I would be destroying the whole institution in the matter of seconds. And so many deaths would follow. She wanted me to do it, telling me that they all deserved it for breaking a promise, again.

She showed me the vision. Vision of me being free, roaming the earth with powers and no obligations. She promised me the world, only if others paid the price of their lies. Selene is not kind, caring or nurturing. Selene is moon and moon has the darkest side to it. Her powers are raw, unpolished and powerful. Selene is freedom, Selene is death and Selene is pain.

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Author's note :

Hey, so i am back. Well, at least, I try to be back. I will try to update as much at possible. Maybe once every two weeks, or even once a week. 

Anyways, sorry for such delay and I hope you will enjoy this part.