Prologue
I just have no idea why the hell I took that job? I mean why did I agree to do so? It was so stupid of me to do so. I have lost my life partner, my job and my friends. Why did I even choose to this career in the first place? I am just regretting it right now. Why the hell I did not listen what he told me earlier? There were so many questions bugged in my head. Why this why that but now it’s too late. Not too late but it’s very late for me right now. I was there sitting on the cold and hard concrete floor sobbing with the tears of depression. I could just kill myself right now.
I have no idea why always I take a razor sharp knife wanting to stab myself, but there’s surely something that will strike my mind that makes me stop from whatever I am doing right now. What a shitty life I am having over here?
I have nowhere to go, nothing to eat. I am like one of the human rubbish because whenever I put my foot in a store, I always get kicked out by the muscular guard. I have no strength to fight against their strong and muscular body. Bloody guards! I have no idea what is wrong with humans beings now days. They are so cruel to you. Can you the person who is holding this book and reading it rite now, I just want you to imagine if you are at my place rite now where I am. Mean people chasing you out of their shops just cause you look filthy and dirty. You know whenever I walk pass a church I always enter in and thank God of his good deeds. At that moment people don’t care what you do in the church but now it’s a total different story. There was this day, when I passed by a church, I was eager to go in but then, they stopped me from entering in. I did not imagine my wildest dream that I would been chased out from a church. Church is like a place for Christians to do their prayers but then now even filthy and dirty people wasn’t allowed to go in. Now I know that all that was a lie. That is church this, church is that. Nonsense beings humans only know how to lie and lie. Yes I agree that I also got lie before same goes to you guys out there who is reading this book right now.
I have no idea why are people so mean to me? It is not that I have committed a huge crime but even if I have committed a crime I would not be here I would be behind the bars. Sometimes it is hard to understand people.
Earlier my friends used to respect me but now they just act like they don’t even know me in the first place! That day I was begging over at the side walk when I meet a friend of mine. I tried calling her over and over again but there was no reply from her. She acted like she don’t even know me but the truth is that she knows me. We have been friends since 6th grade.
I find myself even worse than the beggers in India. Every morning I go over dumpsters searching for leftovers. Indirectly I hardly get food instead I had to give them to they strays. In the afternoon, I get chased out. At night I practically sleep in the dump yard instead I get chased by starry dogs or it will be raining.
Where I used to sleep in a nice and comfy bed fill of feathers, now I sleep with a pile of rubbish that made me even more filthier.
I lost everything. Practically everything, my friends, family and everything. People who are out there, go out and live your life.
Its all because of the word YES! If I would not have say the word YES this would have not happen to me. If I would not have said YES I would be there with my family, friend and relatives having fun.
Now I am just a filthy thing wondering on the roads. Why just can’t God take me with Him? Oh yeah, I just remembered when people don’t want me why would God?
Now everything is gone. Nothing will come back unless I tried to fix it.
I hope to get my life back.
