It's not like all my life was blue,
But really when I'm with you,
You tear me down, break me apart,
And I then wish to depart.
It's not like a story of a little girl,
Who had her hands and feet at the whole world
It's not okay for you to judge
And just go plunge
Into a story that was not yours to tell
It's not like I meant it as a dream
But your interpretation made me wanna scream
You turned what I said, into something else
Something that was just.....not.....true
It was never your right to play judge and jury
To decide what was wrong, what was right?
And all the kindness that I tried so hard to exhibit
Was received with negative before I could even begin it
You tore my self confidence
Made me put on a face of joy and neutralism
But inside I was confused
To what I did. What I said,
And I always wondered
What I ever did to you.
I look back and I try to see the perspective you thought of me
Self-centered, like the world revolved around me
But it was never your place to misjudge
But to understand
Look at things from my perspective
I get it, people are different
Personalities clash
But it's just to understand one another
Not to turn ones feelings to ash
No one's life is perfect, which is something you should know
Some people don't get the opportunity to show
But it's no one's place to be confused
In a personal matter that just doesn't concern you
I still wonder what you thought
To produce such a hatred
A feeling of repulsion
To someone you didn't even know
People like you don't understand
What it's like to feel neglected, rejected
By people that you hoped would maybe not despise you
But you perfected, that.....one......thing
But if you do understand then why?
Why would you do that to another person?
Why would you be the cause of pain?
When you've been through the very same
Just............... why?
Maybe you don't understand what you did to me,
Because the roles weren't switched
Because honestly you made me suffer.
Time and time again I would question,
What I ever did to you
And you know what
What hurts the most is not even what you did
It was the laughable apology
And how you talk and laugh like it was just some joke
Like you were trying to provoke
But it wasn't funny
I'm still confused to why
But expecting answers would be like fishing in the sky
But all I ever wanted
Was just a heartfelt apology
Not for you to make it a mockery
Because it meant a lot to me
Which is something you clearly do not see
