Harmony in the Shadows: A Cimorelli Symphony of Compassion

Chapter4

Lauren's POV

I wake up to my alarm going of, i check the time 7am. I always set my alarm for that time so I go for a run, Dani and Lise have gotten used to it but I hope I don't wake Emily up. Talking about Emily I look over to see if she's still asleep, she not even in her bed, I panic, I quickly climb down my bunk and stop as soon as I seen Lisa holding Emily. It was a nice thing to see, I wonder why Emily is in Lisa's bed.

I go to the closet and get some gym wear and then I go for a run.

Lisa's POV

I wake up remembering what happened last night, I look down and see Emily still asleep, I slowly get up without waking her and go downstairs, I walk in the kitchen to see mom, dad, the younger boys and Lauren.

" Good morning." I say walking in, grabbing a bowl, sitting down and making my breakfast, Lo came up and sat ext to me and looked at me.

"Why was Emily asleep in your bed when I woke up this morning?" She asked me a little harsh. RUDE.

"Errmm... one, why are you mad? And second, Emily had a bad dream and she came and laid next to me" I replied. I hope Lo isn't getting jealous just cause she found her. She looked at me and stormed of with her skateboard outside.

Emily's POV

I wake up and remember last night, I let myself get close to them. I can't let that happen but I had a really bad dream and I didn't want to be alone, I tried waking Lauren up but nothing so I tried Lisa and she let me sleep with her, I had my face to the wall when I felt someone sit at the end of the bed and placed a hand on my leg making me flinch a little.

" hey, it's okay it's just me." Someone said, they had a sweet motherly voice so my guess it was Katherine, I turned around and to my surprise it was Christina.

"I'm sorry" I replied still tired as I couldn't really sleep last night.

"Hey don't apologise, Emily. How come you're in Lisa's bed?" She asked curious, I didn't really want to tell her but I couldn't think of anything else to say.

"I couldn't sleep so Lisa offered me to sleep with her" I replied hoping that she would drop it and thankfully she did.

"Everybody is eating pancakes downstairs hurry if you want some" she said to me as she was standing up.

"I'm not hungry." I reply, that's a lie, I'm starving but I don't want to eat in front of loads of people. She shrugged her shoulders and walked off, since the age of ten I've always done something I'm not proud of but sometimes it helps relieve the pain so I got up out of Lisa's bed and walked to the bathroom and seen a razor, I've gotten pretty good and taking razors apart and next thing I know I have the blade in my hand. I think to myself if I do one just deep enough n a vein then I'll be gone in minutes, this family won't miss me, they don't know me. I place the cold razor on my wrist and sliced my skin, and then I did it again, and again till my whole arm is full of cuts. Next thing I know someone is knocking on the door.

"One second." I reply, quickly cleaning up the blood in the sink and on my arms, my pj top is long sleeve so I'm ok, I walk out the bathroom and see Katherine standing there, she looks at me and gives me a smile before going into the bathroom, then I remember, shoot I've left the razor on the side and the bloody tissue next to it. I quickly ran to Lisa's room, chucked leggings and a hoodie on , I brought my roller skates with me so I grabbed those and my helmet and ran downstairs to their mom

"Hey is it okay if I go on my skates for a bit?" I asked her hoping that she will say yes before Kath came back downstairs.

"Of course you can sweety but don't be out too late okay?" She replied, "okay" I say as I'm walking out the door, and I start running without looking back.

Katherine's POV

I knock on the bathroom door cause someone seems to be taking ages in there.

"One second." Someone replies, they walk out and it's Emily, I walk in the bathroom and a see the body tissue, she must have a nose bleed or something then I look next to it and I seen the razor, then it hit me. Emily was self harming. I rand downstairs like a headless chicken and I run in the kitchen to see 12 pair of eyes looking at me but no Emily.

"Where is Emily?" I asked hoping that maybe she's upstairs, I forgot to check before coming down here.

"She's gone out on her roller skates, why what's up?" Mom asks, that's not good.

"Chrissy can I talk to you in our room a second?" I ask her and I see she stands up so I ran as fast as I could and sat on her bed. Chrissy helped Lise and I when we went through all this so maybe she can help Emily too. Chrissy comes running up looking confused.

"Chrissy..." is all I manage to say before breaking down, it's sad to see a 13 year old go through this, Chrissy came running over and sat next to me.

"Kathy, what's up darling?" She asked me starting to worry.

I coulnt say anything I was crying that much so I open my hands and the bloody tissue was in one and the razor in the other, she looked at me with sadness.
"Oh Kathy, darling you should have come to me first." She replied. Oh god she thinks I've started again.
"It's not me Chrissy, it's Emily, she's the one who's done it." I tell her, she goes from sad to worry, then she stands up and looks at me.

"Tell mom and dad, that I've had to go out and see nick there was an emergency as I'm gonna run out the door and I'll get in my car and go find her." She tells me.

Christina's POV

After what Kath just told me there is no way on earth I'm letting Emily be on the streets on her own, I have a first aid kit in the back of the car, and a blanket as it's a little cold, I'm driving and driving when I spot her sat on the beach, I park the car and walk up to her.

"Is this sweet taken?" I say as I'm pointing down to the sand next to her. She looks at me and jumps.

"Yeah." She replies, she looks even sadden than she did yesterday when she first came.
"Sorry for scaring you." I say to her hoping that she will look at me, "it's okay." She replied but didn't move.
This is it, I'm just gonna ask her, I helped Kathy and Lise when they went through the harming so maybe I can help Emily too.

"Emily, why have you done it?" I ask her, she just looked at me and broke down, I quickly wrapped her in my embrace.

"Hey, shhh, shhh, it's okay, wanna tell me what's on your mind?" I asked, she is hugging me pretty tight now, the poor girl must me terrified. Then she. Finally said something.

"Christina....... I'm scared, I don't want to be here anymore, all I've been told frowning up is that I'm worthless, that I shouldn't be here anymore, I'm a mistake, I'm a burden, I'm sick or foster houses, I just want to be loved." She managed to say before breaking down even more. The poor girl has definitely been through enough.

"Hey look at me." I grab her chin so our eyes meet "you are not a burden, you're not a mistake, and you are definitely not worthless, you are loved, by all of us, you should be here, there is nothing to be scared about, I'm here now and I'm not going anywhere, okay princess?" I tell her, she looks and me and gives me another hug.

"Hey how about we get in the car and I get these cuts cleaned up for you? I have a first aid kit in my car." She looks at me and nods, we walk to my car and I clean her cuts up and bandage it up then we go to Starbucks and we get a drink.
"Chrissy?" Emily looks at me. OMG she used my nickname, "Yes Em, what's up?" She looks at me and smiles, I guess we have a nickname for Emily.

"when we get back can you tell everyone that you picked me up on your way back home?" She asked me, I looked at her.

"Of course we can darling." I replied, maybe she'll tell someone else eventually.