Dear Jonghyun: Letters to an Artist

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18. Dezember 2023

Dear Jonghyun,

many things happened in the last year. There are so many things I can talk about but not many things which means a lot. I remembered you every single day, Jonghyun. How can I not? You meant to much to me, even when didn't know each other and even when I just met you a few weeks before you died. It's still hard to believe that you are not longer here now. But all the posts without you still remember the world that there is someone missing. We're missing you so much, Jonghyun. Even you bandmates and friends. I know that they think of you every day. It's what people do when they lost someone they really, really loved. And they will always think about you.

You made so many people happy. You showed them so many things. And with your suicide... However, I understand why you committed suicide. All the pressure and all the hope, which sends into you, pushed you in that way. That's why you became depressed and why you started thinking about yourself that you're not good enough. But you were. And you still are. You are the best angel everyone can ever know and that's awesome. I wished that I could meet you but it's too late know, isn't it? You died six years ago but I'm still alive. We both will never meet each other. But I still hope that we will even when it's a low possibility. Maybe we will see each other one day. Even when it's just for a short time.

However, it's been a while now since you died. And you saw all the things happened on earth. You see the war between Ukraine and Russia. You see the war between Gaza and Israel. You see that Moonbin died this year. You see all the bad things happening this year. But I know that you also see the good things. And I hope that the good things happened are more than the bad things.

Maybe I feel sad the most time and I think sad and mad things the most time in my life but I that's not good. You should do what you love and when you really want to archive it, you will archive your dream. And maybe when it's sad I know that you lived your dream. And I hope that you will be reunited with your friends and you family, even when it'll take a while. You shouldn't be alone like many people in earth are. You will never be alone because there are many Shawols who still remember you and who will always love you the way you are. Like I do.

Thanks for helping me to get through bad moments and for being there for me when nobody else is.

You did well. You really did.

Sincerely,
Limmoscow