Open Up

chapter 1

Cassies pov

As i walked home from school with my little brother carson by my side i dreaded walking inro that door my father screaming at me and beating me for  not cleaning the house or not making supper or all the other basic parenting that  he should be doing.

he hasn't cared about anything ever since my mom died 3 years ago. he has been aweful to carson and i. my mom was my best friend my person and i could never get over losing her it was hard on carson too he was only 8 when it happened.

i opened the door my dad not home yet i looked in the cuboards for food and found a box of mac and chese and a can of soup i heated those up and got a bowl for my dad and carson a just grabbed an apple from the fidge and called it dinner.

my dad stumbled through the door drunk as useal ''cassidy what for dinner " theres some the Mac and cheese and soup'' i responded
''god damnit cassie i want real food'' he snarked at me "yeah well its not my fault your lazy ass wont get some groceries" i regreted saying that instantly
my dad pinned me against the wall and and slapped me across my face "don't you dare speak to me like that you little shit'' he said through gritted teeth he through me back down to the floor. it took everything in me to hold back my tears

after he stublbed back out the door i saw carson standing theres with a sad and scared look on his face i pulled him into a hug " dont worry i'll get us outta here some day i said softly he just held on to me harder.

after i helped carson with his homework and did mine took a shower and got comfy i just sat on my bed and cried

what if i cant help carson
what if moms dissoponted it me
what if my dad kills one of us
what if we lose the house

i could not take i grabbed my blade and cut blood pooling around my thighs as i kept digging the cold metal into me i felt good an addicting pain and i knew i was goona do it again .

a/n hey sooo this is my frist ch hope yall like it will try to make the next one longer