HER SWEET CRIES. GXG.

Chapter15: This just got interesting

Rosetta:

I give her a tired smile, "Yes I'm fine".

She lets go of my hand, including the hand on the cup and places them in front of her, on top of the table, and looks at me staight in the eyes.

She opens her mouth to say something but is interrupted by the waitress that approaches our table.

"Good evening ladies, are you guys perhaps ready to order?" She asks, Natalie keeps her eyes on me, not saying a word.

"Not yet, but we'll be sure to call you when we are" she says now finally looking at the waitress. The waitress nods her head and leaves.

She then looks back at me, she's staring straight into my soul. I can see the worry in her eyes, but she also gives off this frustrated energy and i feel the urge to say something, but i don't know what.

So i just decide to say the first thing that comes to mind, which is.

"You look good tonight", and i genuinely mean it. She tilts her head and chuckles.

"Thanks, you look great too" she says with a smile on her face. I feel myself relax more.

"But that doesn't answer my question" she says with an intense look in her eyes. I clear my throat and scratch the back of my hand. "Are you okay.?" She asks again.

My eyes are everywhere besides on her. She grabs my chin and makes me look at her. Her jaw is slightly clenched but i pay it no mind, as i am not familiar with sharing my thoughts and feelings, so i couldn't care less about her anger or frustration.

But somehow after a while of staring at me, she finally manages to get me to speak.

"Fine I'll speak, i am not okay...i feel like a tiny fly stuck in a wind storm, a hurricane, with no where to turn, no one there to help me, it feels like I'm being choked by a huge, muscular man who i just refused the one thing that they wanted most in life, Like, i feel as though theres a flock of birds stuck in my tummy, flying all around trying to get out but can't My palms are sweaty and i can't think straight nor breath correctly, Nothing feels okay, it feels like theres a heavy load in my chest that i want to let out but i can't because i don't know how big it is and how much it's capable of doing or destroying, i have thousands of feelings that I'm feeling and i can't describe a single one of them, i don't know what's going on and i usually know everything about me because i am very self aware, but not when I'm with you, not when you're around, i feel like a different person and i don't know to expect next and that scares me, so no... i am not okay." I say all in one breath, and let out a big exhale, it feels like a big part of the weight I've been carrying has been lifted.

I take a moment to analyse Miss Hayes' reaction, and she looks... flustered and taken aback, i feel like she is still processing everything I've said... i feel bad for saying so much all in one go.

After a few seconds she lets out a light chuckle amd gives me a warm and adoaring smile. I look at her in confusion and tilt my head, trying to figure out why she's smiling.

She does not say anything, instead she calls the waiter over and orders for the both of us. After the waiter leaves , she takes my hands and squeezes them. She looks deep into my eyes and pulls them closer to her chest.

"I would tell you what's going on with you, but i think it's best you figure it out yourself my love." More confusion wahses over me, after she says this. She lets go of my hands and pours us both a glass of wine that was brought by the waiter.

Shortly after Natalie poured the wine, Lilly and her husband arrive. A part of me is a little disappointed. However I'm happy my friend is here to celebrate this 'special' day with me.

Lilly and her husband are escorted to the table by a waiter, however halfway to the table i notice the waiter has gone back to the door.

"Why did he turn back?" I ask Lilly while i stand, to give her a hug.

"Oh no, i just sent him off politely- She told him she is not blind and can see her BEEEAUTIFUL friend clearly and needs no help" Lilly's husband interrupts Lilly's lie, to call her out.

"I'm not surprised" i say chuckling, we all laugh. I turn around and face our table, i gesture to Natalie, "This is Natalie, my urm... friend and Natalie this is Lilly..." Natalie stands and shakes Lilly's hand. "And this is Lilly's husband"- "Darriel" Natalie says before i have a chance to say. I look at them in confusion, "You know each other?" I ask them confused.

What is with all this confusion lately, it's my birthday for crying out loud... can't i have just one day of peace and clarity.

"Hey Nat" Darriel, Lilly's husband, greets Miss Hayes.

"Hey Dar" (pronounced as dare) Natalie replies. The fudge!!? They even have nicknames for one another.

They share a secrete handshake and a tight high.

Lilly and i look share a confused look at each other and i can tell Lilly wants to know what's going on as much as i do.

Well this just got interesting...

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A/N I know i said I'm done with this birthday thing but the chapter is too long. My apologies.

I'm finally enjoying a holiday, so I'll be updating more frequently.

Aaaand!! Today I'm uploading about 3-4 times... I'll see how much time i have. And how much i need to separate chapters.

Love you my pumpkins.

Mncwah.

Love you❤✨