Heart Coated in Snow

Chapter 3

A few months later...The classic love sickness, can't eat, can't sleep, always thinking about one person. 

She didn't eat regularly anyway. It was always random, just as most decisions in her life.   She was laying in bed staring at her ceiling with her cat napping on her chest.

She could never get them out her head, all she wanted was to sleep because now she was exhausted.  She was in bed right now, cursing the day they were born for doing this to her. 

As she stared to think more and more, her blush grew heavier. "Damnit raine.. Go back to the fucking whom.. Fucking flirtatious asshole.. "   she muttered, then her phone started ringing.

"Hello?"

"Evening princess"

"I.. RAINE!? HOW THE FUCK DID YOU GET MY NUMBER!?"

"Heh.. Your sister"

"Great.. Just.. Perfect"

"Yeah, you are perfect"

"... What do you want?"

"Just wanted to check up on you"

"Oh? Wait really?"

"Of course, I care about your well being"

"Well.. That's uhm.. Very sweet, I'm fine actually"

"Perfect.. "

"So uh what's up with you?"

"Nothing just as the park"

"Oh? How come?"

"It's calm and relaxing, you wanna join me?"

"Oh, uhm alright sounds like fun"  

"See you soon princessa"

"Yeah.. Soon"

Eda hung up, and smiled.  Then it really sunk in on what she just agreed to.  "I fucking hate this person so much.. "  she said to herself. "They why is their a plaster board full of their social media pictures under your bed"  Luna asked. Eda glared at the small black kitten, and got dressed in something warm.

She put on a red sweater, and some jeans, her body made natural heat so she didn't get as cold.  

Eda met them at the park and was she saw was a shock in itself   a beautiful snowy atmosphere.  It almost made her forget she wanted to avoid romance.

Almost

As she walked to them, they were sitting on a bench under a tree.  " hey raine.. You look comfortable" she teased as she sat next to them.  "Hey princess, nice to see you"   she smiled, as sa pink hue covered her cheeks. "Raine.. Why do you call me that?"  They took a second to comply an answer.  "You remind me of one"  eda was slightly ammused. "What? You mean like the Disney ones? Or from Mideveil times?"  Raine chuckled. "The Disney ones" eda scoffed. "Oh now thats just offensive, il be damned if I marry anyone I met within 3 days"    Raine started laughing, which made eda laugh a little. "No.. Have you seen the movie brave?"  Eda took a second to think, then gave Raine an unimpressed expression. "It's the red hair isn't"  Raine sighed. "Yep.. "  eda started laughing, which made Raine blush and feel a sense of accomplishment. 

They enjoyed seeing her happy, truly they did. 

They felt proud of themselves for finally getting the courage to be around her, because their was no way in hell they'd be able to pull this off in college when they actually met her.  They remembered, she didn't. 

They looked at her as she got distracted by the atmosphere alone.  Her scarlet lips formed in a smile, the small amount of mascara and eyeliner she wore, her hair that she always had down, shifting so perfectly with the wind.  The way her eyes sparkled it lit up when they complimented her.  The most simple way to out it would be she's and essence of beauty, and even that's an understatement.   It made them think it gave them the courage, to do something they've been dreaming of for years.   Raine took a deep breath and let their heart guide them.  They turned her head to face them, ad a expression of curiosity filled her golden eyes.  

Raine looked in her eyes, a charming but oh so gentle smile, one that allured her to them.  Neither if them could speak, no am out of words would be enough to express the intense emotions they felt in this moment.   Soon they found themselves magnitated towards each other, before long their lips locked.  

The warmth of their love, and passion electrified their kiss, Raines head tilted a little deepening their connection.   She slide her hand up their hair tangling her fingers in it, just as shes dreamed about before. They took hold of her hips, a firm yet comforting gentle grip.  She was turning redder by the second.  They wanted her closer, their shifted her body closer to them, she wanted more, she parted her lips, inviting Raine into her mouth, and invitation they gladly accepted.  

Their kisses got deeper and deeper, untill their kiss ended with a pop. Their eyes slowly opened, and once their gaze met, loving filled eyes met with panicked ones. "No.. No.. Raine.. I-i.. Need to go"  she tried to run, she tried to hide, but Raine refused to let her go. They grabbed her hand and pulled her back. "Eda listen to me.. I-im sorry I kissed you, I should of asked first il admit that.. But it wasn't one sided.  If.. Your afraid let me teach your not to be afraid.." They places another gentle, but small kiss in her scarlet lips, one she enjoyed, on she expected. The hears in her eyes is what broke them. "Stop it! just stop it! get off me! don't touch me!  Don't ever kiss me!! you don't know what that does to me! just!-.. just go.. just leave Raine.. please" she pleaded tears rolling down her cheeks.  "You.. Want me to leave?.." They asked in a raspy voice. She pulled a way from them, the wind blowing her hair effortlessly, small strands over her eyes. "Yes! Leave! Leave my sight! Leave my life! Leave me. Alone!!! I don't want this! I don't want you to love me! I don't want love! Go find someone other girl.. Some other girl that can actually be loved! Because that-.. That's not me.. It never has been.. I can't be loved I don't deserve to be loved.. And I don't want you to be with me out if pity.. So just go.. Just leave.. "    her words broke them, it shows she was broken. 

The words of a broken heart are the only words.. That can make a lover think if why they love someone.   She was sobbing trying to wipe her tears away, being vulnerable being seen a t her lowest.

Never an option

She left, she just turned an left, leaving Raine to even think. Why do I love her so much?..