TREASURE JiKyu Oneshots

Dear Kim Junkyu

A fan's letter to his idol

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Dear Kim Junkyu,

I don't know if you'll read this. You must always receive hundreds of fan letters, the probability of you reading this may be a mere 1%, but I still chose this way, cause I don't know how else to convey what I feel for you.

My name's Park Jihoon. A guy born in the same year as you. It's kinda lame, right? Being of the same age, I'm not even close to achieving half the things you did. But you know what's funny? I'm not even jealous. I rather feel proud, always brag about you to my mom who only replies with 'Does he even know you?' Of course you don't know me personally. But the collective fans you adore, I'm one of them. So technically, we're connected, right?

When I first got to know you, I saw a timid young boy, eyes trembling with the fear of his dreams crushing down. I saw your face when they criticized you, I saw how you held back your tears when they kept giving you negative feedback. You're good at holding your tears, unlike me. I was as young as you, and I was so furious! How did you manage to keep a calm face, Junkyu?

I was there when you vanished from the whole industry. There was no way for me to know how you were doing. Some vague twitter posts were all I could rely on, thinking that you were doing alright, or at least trying. You were holding on to your dreams. Because you know, I did. I studied every night thinking that if you can endure all the struggles, so can I. You inspired me, and many more people like me. Yet, you hadn't even made a debut. Do you realize how much power you held even before going public? Damn! You're so famous!

They say, I'm quite the optimist. Yet, even I started losing hope, until you made an appearance again. When I heard that you'd compete a second time, for another group, a big scale group this time, I crossed my fingers. I don't know how I grew to like you so much, but I was so determined to help you reach your goal. I know I didn't have much to do, the greater responsibility lied in your hands, but I was still glad to be a part of your journey. Do you know that, Junkyu? That a guy all the way from Busan was always by your side?

You were brilliant! You still are, skill wise, talent wise, personality wise. When they first saw what I saw in you, you know I was over the moon! I was crazy happy, I kept saying people that you were going to make it this time. Many many people took interest in you! Yeah, I kinda felt overshadowed, cause I couldn't afford going to meet you in person. But I was happy for those who did. Meeting Kim Junkyu in person? Wow! I can only dream from here.

You changed so much, what can I say- you became even more handsome, such a heartthrob. I watched people online say how attractive you are, in person even more. I can't lie, I saw that coming. I knew the innocent young boy image would be modified one day, and it did for the better. I stared in awe, from head to toe, Junkyu, you keep glowing.

I spent those months being as anxious as any of your supporters. I did everything I could to make you accomplish the huge goal you set. I had my heart on the sleeves. During the debut announcement, I was alone by the sea, watching through my phone. My heart was beating so hard! My hands were trembling! I kept texting my friends watching as one by one the trainees' names were called. And then, I heard your name. You couldn't scream, but I did. I screamed so loud, I was glad the ocean saw me. There was only the moon to judge me. I swear I cried for you that night. And I ran back home, hugged my mom. She probably thinks I'm crazy. But you, Junkyu, you make everything work. I love you so much, I connect to you like no one else. Do you know how loved you are? I don't know about others but here you have me, Jihoon, a guy who's never going to leave your side.

I watched you grow as an artist. Day after day, weeks after weeks, comebacks after comebacks. Nothing else matters to me, no one else makes me feel as safe as you do. When I feel down, when I need strength, I simply come and watch you, and I'm all smiley. Is this normal or am I too far gone? But I don't mind. Cause it's you. I always trust you.

You keep making dreams come true. People take inspiration from you, to chase their dreams and to never give up. I hope you know this, my dear idol, that you didn't only debut to write or perform your own songs; you're here to cure hearts that are too weak to bloom alone. And I know, you love us. I believe to know that you love me. If you ever read this, can you please tell me you love me?

I know, many fans join your concerts, some are too lucky to join fansign events. I'm neither rich nor lucky. Being your fan for years, even living in the same county, I couldn't even manage to buy a concert ticket. But I'm saving up, and one day, I'll be there. I'll watch you live, I'll see your smile up close. I just hope, you look at me once. Smile at me with those gorgeous eyes looking into mine. Is it too much to ask for?

I can't tell you enough what you mean to me. People sometimes tease me about it, that I only simp over you and not some of the female idols out there. I know it doesn't matter to you, but would it make you feel happier knowing you have so many fanboys as well? People love you regardless. And I love you, I'd like to believe more than anyone. I hope one day I can say it to you in person. My dream, my hope, my inspiration for all these years, my dear Kim Junkyu, please don't get sick or overwork yourself. You're perfect, maybe a bit too perfect for this world. Keep doing what you love doing, spread kindness and love like you always do. I'll be cheering you on always, and I know other fans will do it too. You have an army behind you, you know? So don't ever worry about mean words or jealous lots. Just come to talk to us, I'm sure you'll be bombarded with more love you can take.

But you still deserve more ;) You deserve the whole world.

Let me end it with a secret. You know the pole star that always stays in the north sky, that shows us the direction we should follow? I didn't know its name before, so I named it 'Junkyu'. Because in a way, you've showed me the way I want to live my life. You've directed my happiness all along. So if you read this, take a look at the night sky, find the star that shines the brightest in the north sky. That's you. To me, to many others. You're the shining star you've always wanted to be. Congratulations, for being so pretty inside out.

I made it longer than I wanted. Now I'm worried whether you're going to read it. But I'm going to send it anyway. I'll cross my fingers for it to catch your attention.

Dear Kim Junkyu, this has been Park Jihoon, one of your well wishers. One of the many fans who want nothing but the best to happen to you.

You are so loved, and I'm so happy that you are!

Take care,
PJH :)

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Junkyu stared at the crumpled letter with teary eyes. The last bit of the letter was stained with small tear drops. He couldn't remember when he cried reading a fan letter last. This has been buried among lots of other letters, for days maybe. Junkyu had to read those one by one to notice this long one. Usually, he keeps long letters to read later. Somehow, he picked this one though. Maybe it was the stickers, the simple smiley face and all those flowers. He felt glad that he did.

Because suddenly, he wanted to meet a Busan guy named Park Jihoon, and tell him a small 'I love you too'.

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Happy hoonieskyu Day!! 🌼🖤♥️🌠 Unni wrote yet another oneshot for u! This one's a bit different, and it also comes with another part, so look forward to ittttt~ (Ain't it just us saying these to our idols tho XD)

Enjoy your day! Wish you were here with us tho (Taratari chole asho!)

Part 2 coming soon~

Also, I have a good news! After I finish my ongoing story, I'll publish a JiKyu full story! I've prepared the plots and everything, so just wait! This one's going to be a good one :')