Another Person, Another Pain (D-Series Trilogy 02)

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Heather Yvonne's Point of Veiw

NOW I'M thinking of what did I do to deserve this kind of life? Is this the payment of what my father did? Is this the payment of what I've been through after opening my eyes about everything I didn't knew?

What did I do to have such a supportive and loving parents like Mommy and Shaun's father which I address my father now? What did I do to have such a caring and protective brother like Shaun? What did I do to have a good and kind Mama who's my second mother?

What did I do to have Ace in my life?

I'm more than happy right now, my lips aren't tired from smiling. My whole body aren't tired of being this happy, so much happy. I'm riding a bicycle good thing I'm wearing a skirt-short today, it was fun!

I wanted to ride bicycle ever since I was a kid, but my real father won't allow me. But every time Shaun would visit me, he always take me out and we will go to bicycle—paying for one hour use of bicycle. My memory when I was an innocent kid.

I'm laughing. Obviously so happy right now, Ace was just beside me. I do the one hand while Ace did the no hand! Siguro dahil na lang din sa kapaguran ay doon lang kami bumalik kung nasaan si Shaun. He was the one who look after our things while we're enjoying riding bicycle.

"Ayaw mo?" tanong ko dahil hindi siya nag-try na sumakay, umiling lang siya. "I'm fine. You look so happy" he said and I smiled. I'm indeed happy. "Ikaw na ang bahala sa kapatid ko" Shaun said, Ace just nodded. Shaun went to me and hug me for a minute and then leave, I just smiled while watching him leave.

"Thank you" I said and sat on the bench, Ace just nod his head and smile at me. "Welcome. But you don't need to thank me for the things I did for you, I'm doing it on my own will. I want to give you the treatment you deserve" he said that makes me smile.

No! I didn't do anything to have him in my life, his love was just pure. His intentions are pure. His words was sealed with the action. His not a typical man who's going all out at first and as the relationship go, he won't stay the same and changed. Ace is different, his pure and good man.

"What we're you thinking? Problem?" tanong niya at umupo sa tabi ko, bumuntong-hininga lang ako. "Just random realizations, but that's not a big deal" I said, Ace held my hand and play with my fingers.

"What kind of realizations? Are you alright? Tell me if your mind can't carry all that thoughts, share it to me. I'll listen, no matter what's kind of realizations it is. You don't have to carry it alone. You have me now, and you'll always have me. I'll listen Yvonne, my ears are all open for you, so you won't carry them alone. All by yourself" he said.

And with his words, I realized that my mind was not strong enough to handle all that thoughts. Napapagod din ang utak ko pero pinipilit ko pa rin na dalhin yun kahit na masakit, kahit na walang nakaka-alam basta ba ay hindi ako magiging pabigat sa iba.

I choose to cry alone in the dark than to let others carry my problem, I don't want to be a burden anymore. I just realized that when I found out everything and I was a burden to Shaun and my mother, all they did was to keep me safe and clear my mind about everything. But it turns out, I made them suffer and I'm a damsel in distress to them.

And now that I knew everything, I won't let that happen again. I want to carry all my problems all by myself, I'll carry it and won't burden everyone. They already sacrifice what they have that time, and it's now the time I should stand on my own.

"You can carry it, but you can count on to others too without making yourself a burden to them. Your not a burden, Yvonne. Always keep that in mind. Seeking for help doesn't mean your a burden, no one is perfect. Everyone can ask for someone's help, we're all human and we do have limit" he said.