I feel that I don't have much support.
I feel like my real-life friends don't support me... My family doesn't support me, I hate to say this... even my online Discord friends don't support me. I just don't feel the connection.
Why am I saying this?? Well, the proof is that who calls me is only my husband, and that's when he goes to work. Next, my Discord friends don't even message me personally. I have only been summoned when I was needed, and that's rare now.
One of my Discord friends, let's call her (J.J) {fake name}, goes to one relationship to another. Her last relationship is that her boyfriend is a narcissist person who wants an open relationship. He talks badly behind her back. Called her boring when she wasn't. Well.... I believe that she is trying to have another relationship. I don't know for sure, but it is just getting weird and suspicious. For as long as I have known her, she is a nice person, it just that their is something that I'm noticing. I don't know what...
It is just that every time that someone in the discord becomes a bad person. I have been feeling bad emotions that I don't want to be in the server any longer. I try not to say anything to anyone because I don't want to cause problems..
I just don't know who to turn to... because I don't know who to trust... I just know I will plan to leave soon... don't know when, it is just a matter of time.. I'm just tired of the drama...
The guy that (J.J) is talking to now, let's call him (Tim), {also fake name} I didn't have a good impression of him. I made a joke, and he thought I was being serious, and he called me a crazy psycho. I didn't tell anyone that he called me a psycho... I got upset...
Oh well, I don't give a crap anymore. I just got this gut feeling that more bad things will happen in the future... I don't care, though..
