I crave for my ex-wife [ Kim Namjoon]

Part 1

Y/n Pov

After preparing breakfast for my husband's family, I go back to our share bedroom to wake him up, yes I know probably everyone call husband's family in law, but why I call them his family because they never consider me as a family member of this house not home, there is no feeling like home here.

I was a orphan and my grandpa raise me, I am so glad that I have got the best grandpa ever. But his stupid promise...now I am bearing, yes, he made a promise to his so close friend I mean my husband's grandpa, my grandpa is no more now, I still miss him, now I'm all alone, I was alone and there was no one in the family, then his grandfather brought me here and got me married to his beloved grandson Kim Namjoon.

Today it has been 3 years since we got married and unfortunately there is no marital relationship between me and my husband. It's not that I didn't try, I fell in love with my husband the day I married him, but I guess he's not. He always cold toward me never appreciate my work and his so-called family, like his mom and his mom's sister and her daughter Sana. they always insulted me even in front of him but he never ever takes my side, he doesn't care who humiliate me and why, either it's my fault or not he never cared. now my love also fading, I don't know why but now I just want to be alone; I want to go far away from them, I am tired. I am done.

Y/n: Namjoon...Namjoon.... i called him try to wake him up...but he is sleeping peacefully...last night he came home late, I asked him but he didn't say anything...and he was heavily drunk, even Jimin and I hardly handled him...I want to let him sleep some more time but I know there is important meeting and he need to go...so I try to shake him a little.

He groans and open his eyes and look at me ...with dame cold gaze...I step back...

Y/n : you are late for meeting....i said with low voice..

He looked at the time and without saying anything got up and went towards the bathroom and closed the door... I think my work is done here so I go down so that I get a chance to humiliate myself again...Because I know...Everyone is at the dinner table by now.

Sana: Where were you till now, are you the head lady of this house for whom we have to wait, how long have I been waiting?

Namjoon's mom: calm down my daughter, Y/n serve the food...we are hungry?

Y/n : yes Mam.

With that I start serving...then I saw my husband also come downstair fully ready, he look dame stunning....i just can't take off my eyes from him, he is so handsome as hell, every girl can fall for this man,

Aunt Sumin: Hey where is your attention, you scattered food on the table, you know Namjoon doesn't like a messy table.

Y/n: Sorry Aunty Sumin, I will clean it.

Aunt Sumin: No need, just go away from here, I don't want to see this miserable face of yours.

I felt hurt not because that woman called me wretched but because my husband heard this but did not react, what else can be expected from this man.

Enduring the humiliation, I serve food to my husband, after this

Sana: Hey, where is my tea, bring it quickly

There are more than 50 maids in this house but these people like to rule over me, without wasting any time I go to the kitchen and come back with Sana's tea. My condition is so pitiful, even our servants feel sorry for me.

The cup of tea was in my hand and it was very hot, I was going towards Sana, she deliberately moved her leg towards me and I bent forward and the cup fell from my hand, the cup fell near Sana's hand more than that. Tea fell on my hand but she started shouting, everyone's attention came towards us.

Aunt Somin: Oh no look, this wretched girl has burnt my daughter's hand, oh God.

First of all, I am in pain and on top of that, this woman and her daughter are blaming me.

Namjoon's mother: Y/n, what's all this, we know you are jealous of Sana but that doesn't mean you will hurt her in front of us, apologize.

Y/n: apologize but why have I not done anything; she deliberately moved her foot towards me so that I fall.

Aunt Somin: Look what a rude girl she is, she commits a mistake and then blames my daughter.

Namjoon's mother: I know why you are doing all this, you are not a part of this family, Sana is like our daughter, not you so you are jealous of her, now apologize to Sana.

Y/n: I have not committed any mistake for which I should apologize to this girl,

Namjoon's mother: How dare you?

Namjoon: Apologize to Sana

All this was unbearable, my husband did not believe me, what could be sadder than this?

Y/n: It is not my fault so I am not going to apologize.

Namjoon angrily gets up from his place and comes towards me,

Namjoon: Apologize.

Y/n: No

I feel a sharp prick on my cheek, he slaps me, now what could be more humiliating than this, my eyes filled with tears,

Namjoon: Don't you dare to lie Y/n, I know you very well, sana is not like you ok , why does she hurt herself huhh! She's not cheap like you , so don't think I will trust you , this is your cheap tricks ok.

Y/n: I will still say that it is not my fault.

Saying this I run towards our room

Namjoon's mother: See the consequences of marrying this poor and illiterate girl, you should not have listened to your grandfather, bloody gold digger girl.

Namjoon walks away without saying anything

I was crying while sitting on my room floor, its so unbearable, he crosses all the limit this time, now I am really done with him, I waited for him to love me back, but he proved today that how much he hates me, now I am done with this marriage too. I want to be free I want to live with my own for myself, now I want to love myself.

At night

I didn't go out of my room not I had eaten anything...I don't want to face those faces, they always remind me my position in this house, I am just a maid for them, its around 8 in the evening...my husband came home...its surprising he never come home this much early...what bring him come home early

I don't want to look at him, he only reminds me of my pain my humiliation, my love for him is now faded completely and now I can only hate this man, the man who never respect his wife don't deserve his wife love.

I was still on the floor and he totally ignoring me he changed his clothes and about to go to his study room which is attached with our room, then I can't handle this burden so its slip from my mouth.

Y/n: I WANT DIVORCE!

His step stopped after hearing this , he turn to me with cold face,

Namjoon: what did you say?

This time I directly look into his eyes without any fear or softness, like same cold emotion which he was holding,

Y/n: I want divorce Mr. Kim Namjoon,

Namjoon: don't you think it should be me who ask for divorce, I am the one who was forced to marry a girl like you,

Y/n : what doesn't it matter now , let's get divorce and separate our path , I really don't want to stay in this house and stay with you and your family anymore, I am done. Don't worry , I don't need anything from you , just your signature on divorce paper is enough for me.

With that I can't hold myself and I came out of the room leaving him little surprise. Now I just have to leave this place, I can't tolerate that man and his family anymore, my love has now turned into hatred, I wish I could have done it long ago, I am no longer going to be their slave after crushing my self-respect.

As my grandfather used to say, if someone doesn't appreciate your love, let him go.

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