Tough Love

Chapter three: it's you isnt it?

Y/n/n: your nick name

September 23rd. How on earth had the time flew. It's been a week or so since I found out that I am betrothed to a Deatheater named Severus. Asking Professor Snape about him was not the worst thing in the world. I just wish I knew who Severus was.

The next meeting is tonight, so maybe I will be able to see him. I sigh. There must be another way to figure this all out..

"Earth to y/n"

Why can't I think properly?

"Y/n!" Draco yelled. I shook from my thoughts and looked at him.

"What?" He rolled his eyes at me pointing to the front of the class where Professor Flitwick had written my name on the board for detention.

"I'm sorry Professor, I was just stuck in my own thoughts"

He sighed in understanding and wiped the name clear. "Be warned that if this happens again I will not be so kind" he nodded to me sternly.

"Yes Professor, sorry" I smiled before actually focusing.

"What were you so in your own head about?" Draco whispered. I shrugged my shoulders and looked at him.

"The betrothal, I don't think I'm ready to be married" I sighed. He looked at me apologetically. Placing his hand on top of mine. A blush rose to my cheeks and I smiled at him.

"Good luck with that. Severus is the moodiest and coldest fucker I have ever met in my life" he laughed. My smile vanished. What? Cold? And moody?! Professor Snape had me convinced that this Severus guy was nice and warm.

"You're kidding right?...I was told that he's the complete opposite" he laughed and turned to face me whilst the class was ending.

"Y/n/n, he's a prick to you. I mean sure- he's been nicer towards us than many others but that's because he knows us" he sighed. "Can't you ask the dark lord to change the suitor?"

I thought about that question. Why don't I just ask the dark lord to point out who Severus is before I ask him to change it. But, with what Draco was saying I guess he expects me to already know who I'm being betrothed too.

"Dray?"

"Yeah y/n/n ?"

"Do I know severus?"

I had to ask. If Draco says "no" then I will have to think harder about my approach of figuring out who he is. If Draco says "yes" then he's narrowed it down to deatheaters I have talked too and been around a lot. The only deatheaters I've been around a lot are my parents, Dracos parents, Professor Snape, Barty crouch jr and a few others. I don't know many of their first names but I'm sure I can figure it out. Draco waved his hand in front of my face. Fuck I zoned out again.

"Y/n, you know him. He's been around since you started at Hogwarts" he chuckles. I begin packing up my things as he does and we leave the charms classroom. "Oh for fuck sake y/n, you're not that thick are you?" He groaned.

"I'm just overwhelmed with thoughts draco" I sighed sitting down against the wall in the corridor. He looked down at me and sighed.

"Get up, I'll take you to him" my eyebrows furrowed as I looked at him.

"You're not allowed to apparate on school grounds draco" I rolled my eyes unimpressed. He scoffed and grabbed my arm yanking me up off the floor. I landed against his chest and that blush came back. "Could've warned me you were going to do that draco" I stepped back looking at him.

"He lives here, I don't need to apparate" he began walking away and I followed him.

Severus' POV:

Finally, the last class of the day is over. No more dunderheads to deal with until Monday. I grab my mug and walk over to the kitchenette in my office, making a quick mug of black coffee. A truly deserved coffee after the inconveniences I had to deal with from the students. As the water finished boiling I hear bickering outside my classroom door. I cannot be arsed.

I grab my now made coffee and place it on my desk. I sit down and pull out a stack of ungraded papers. I dip my quill in the ink pot and bring it to the paper to mark when the door opens and Draco Malfoy walks in.

"Mr Malfoy, what brings you to my office when I have many things to do?" He just looked behind him seeing he was alone before scoffing and walking out of the room.

Well that wasn't confusing. I begin marking again when there was a knock at my door. I sighed exasperatingly.

"Enter" I drawled out. I looked up to see Miss Y/L/N. I assessed her face and she was crying.

"Miss y/l/n, what is the matter?" I asked softer than I intended. She seemed shocked too at my tenderness.

"It's you isn't it Professor?" She asked tearful. I didn't understand what she meant until I remembered the betrothal. I sighed. She was crying because she was going to be married to me. I didn't realise I was that bad. I mean- I wouldn't want to be married to me either. She took my silence as an answer and just cried a bit more, sitting at a desk.

"I'm sorry Miss Y/l/n, I didn't mean to upset you" I stated. I was a bit hurt that she was crying. Like wow, way to make me feel great about myself.

"I'm not upset Professor" she sighed. Liar.

"You're not upset? You're sat here bawling your eyes out"

She nodded and smiled relieved. I was very confused as of right now.

"I'm just relieved that I know you, I've been getting detentions and no sleep for the last week trying to figure out who you were...now I know" she wiped her eyes with that smile not leaving her face. I just looked at her and I felt a warmth spread across my chest. She was happy to be betrothed to me?

"Wait so...you're not disgusted?"

She looked over at me confused. "Why on earth would I be disgusted?" She asked me seriously. I was just so bewildered right now. Why wasn't she angry or grossed out by the thought of having me as her husband.

"I'm Professor Snape. And you're not disgusted knowing you're going to be married to me?" She just nodded.

"Severus, I'm not disgusted by you. In fact I do quite admire you. The way you walk around with intimidating confidence is something most people would cower from yet I seem so drawn to it. Also your intelligence is beyond your years. It's like you don't have to try and you're just correct" she admitted. I sat and listened to her. I was so confused. She wasn't repulsed by me. I would be repulsed by me.

"So no Severus, I'm not disgusted by you. I'll be happy to call you my husband in the future" she smiled at me. I wanted to cry. No one has ever complimented me in such a way. Not even lily. Wait. Lily...

I could never love y/n....she's just a kind yet cheeky student. Sure she's an attractive young woman but...lily was so much more than that. She was beautiful, intelligent, kind and loyal. She was my first friend and my first love. Y/n could never be that.

"You need to leave miss y/l/n, I have things to do. I appreciate your compliments but I am very busy. So, get out"

She looked at him bewildered before slowly nodding and getting up. "I guess I will see you tonight, at the meeting"

I rolled my eyes. "Yes, of course you will. It's mandatory that we are present" I scoffed. I could see that I was hurting her feelings but I needed to. I can't let her in.

"Okay, sorry for disturbing you then Professor" with that she left. I couldn't help but look at the space by the door where she was stood before she left. I feel bad for how I just treated her. But it's better this way.

It's lonelier...but better.

Word count: 1386 words

Sorry for not posting in a while. If you look at my other published book called "the things I've said" you may understand why. <3