𝙎𝙞𝙣𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙄𝙣𝙩𝙤 𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝘿𝙚𝙥𝙩𝙝 𝙊𝙛 𝙈𝙮 𝙀𝙢𝙤𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨

𝙏𝙧𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙚𝙙 𝙄𝙣 𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝘿𝙚𝙥𝙩𝙝𝙨 𝙤𝙛 𝙈𝙮 𝘿𝙚𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙤𝙣 🥀

Sometimes… I feel as if I’m drowning
Not in water… but in my emotions
Have you ever felt like your lungs are out of breath? Yea that’s what it’s like…
But it’s very painful…Then there’s the after effect…
Your heart fade, you’re brain dead, you’re whole body become a zombie…
Just wanna be by yourself in a dark and silent abyss… But at the same time, you just want someone to hold you and tell you “don’t worry, I’m here for you… You’ll be okay”. And even though you know deep down that it’ll never end, that person gives you hope that one day… Just one day… Everything’s gonna be fine.
My depression is like poison, a virus spreading throughout my body and there’s no cure…
And the worst part is wanting to share that pain with someone… Not physically but just trying to let them understand.. But it’s difficult no matter how hard I try to explain what I’m feeling, It’s like a battle for words… a battle I always fail to win…
It's easy to put on a smile, but behind that smile you’re just dying inside… Emotions eating away your insides… And no one will ever understand what it’s like… they out it in their own words to help me figure out what I’m feeling but it’s just all wrong…
Sometimes I just wanna end it all… But I can’t… they say it’s a selfish act… but if you were in my shoes, would you really look at it as selfish???
No one can save me… A laugh for a day or so, then it just creep up on me again… it never stay away… The demon snatching every bit of happy moment from me… taking my memories from my brain.. I can’t remember anything, no matter how hard I try, it’s just pitch black.
That’s all I can say really….all I can do now is to hold on for as long as I can…. I’m not holding on for me, but for someone special that means a lot to me… I thought I couldn’t actually love… but I really love him and sometimes I let my emotions get the best of me.. But I hope he knows how hard I’m trying to be normal for him… because I really hope that one day… I’ll b cured and I’ll be able to get married to him and have a happy life together full of joy and enjoyment.


𝙷𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚏𝚊𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚒𝚗 𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜, 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚍𝚊𝚢 𝚠𝚎'𝚕𝚕 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚎 𝚘𝚔𝚊𝚢!