After I jumped out of my step dads car, I walked around for awhile, not sure where I was going. Not really caring either. I was way too upset to care what happened after that. My feelings were hurt. My head was spinning. Arms and legs throbbing from hitting the road so hard. The rain hasn't let up hardly any. This night has been terrible...
Why does Keith treat me like I don't matter...? Why can't I get him to ever hear me out...? Why doesn't my own mother try to defend me more...?
Tears start flooding down my cheeks again. The rain starts beating down harder like tiny pellets on my bare skin. I looked for something to sit under until the rain let up. Luckily, there was a nearby house with no cars in the driveway and a small shed like building next to it with no door.
I guess that will have to do right now.
I get closer to the house and a cat runs out of the door of the shed and kicks something over and makes a loud crash. I slowly walk in the shed. There are leaks everywhere and a serious breeze flowing through the whole shed. I shivered. But I find a corner that wasn't as wet as the rest of the shed and laid down.
All of a sudden I heard a chain rattle.
Please don't be a dog, please don't be a dog.
I sat up slowly and turned my head to find a soaked little pit bull puppy with matted hair and a chain too tight around its neck. It looked at me with such sad eyes.
Now I know why they call it puppy dog eyes.
I slowly reached for her and she whined and lowered herself to the ground as I reached around her to loosen her chain. She lifted her head and moved closer to me. She laid her little head on my ankle and closed her eyes.
I know girl. Someone left you out here by yourself too..
I rubbed behind her ears, "no one deserves to be treated this way.." She looked up at me. I lifted her head up more and undid the chain completely from around her neck.
"Go on, girl. " I said sitting up. She stood up and crawled into my lap and laid back down.. I smiled and laid down with her down on the ground bedside me wrapped in my arms.
If no one else will...I'll take care of you. I know what it's like. You're not alone anymore.
She licked my wrist once and then fell asleep.
Not even a minute passed before I started feeling tears build up behind my eyelids. I opened my eyes and just let it all out. All the tears, all the sadness, depression, regret, rejection. Everything. All at once. I was lost and confused. Hurt. And I just didn't want the tears to stop.
