My Crush || SEUNGJIN

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"One more math problem, and I'll call it a night." I said to myself.

As usual, I got bored and decided to study. But you can't blame me. I'm an addict.

"Seungmin are you here?" Someone said while knocking on the door. I couldn't quite recognize the voice due to the loud knocking.

"Told you guys that I wanted some alone time." I said rubbing my eyes. I didn't realize how tired I was until I stepped away from the desk.

When I opened the door it was Hyunjin, that was unexpected. I could've sworn he told me that he was going out with the others.

"W-What are you doing here? Shouldn't you be out?" I yawned.

"I wanted to come see you.. Are you okay? You look tired."

"Why would I be tired..? I'm perfectly fine." I yawned again.

"Maybe because it's one in the morning, your eyes are red, and you keep yawning everytime you talk."

"Non...sense." I yawned again.

"I think you should get some sleep. I'll come back another time." I took his hand before he got a chance to walk away.

"Stay. Please? I'm not tired I promise I'm not." He hesitated before coming in but he eventually gave in.

I went back to my desk and sat down on my bed. It was silent for a couple of minutes, but then he spoke.

"Seungmin, why are you doing math problems? This trip is supposed to be a break, and your already starting."

"Let me be, I was bored and alone so I'm doing this."

"Well now your not alone, and you don't have to be bored. I'm sure if you sleep right now, then you'll be energized in the morning."

He came over to where my desk was and closed my book.

"Yah, I was doing something here." He sighed.

"I'm sorry I have to do this but.. I care about your health." He picked me.

"Put me down you idiot!" I whined.

"I will if you let me lay with you." I blushed, why in the world was he doing this?

"Fine... but only for a little." As soon as he got on the bed he pulled me closer.

At this point, you could put a sticker on me and call me a red tomato. I wouldn't even look at him and he did a small chuckle.

Part of me just wanted to enjoy how close we were, but the other part of me wanted to scream. Cuddling with the person you have a crush on is not normal.

I may be to into this, but it feels like we're dating even though we aren't. Some may think we are but I think we are in the talking stage right now.

When I say I think, that means I don't really know. Our relationship is very complicated. I'm aware that he has gained feelings for me, and I'm pretty sure he knows that I have feelings for him.

I'm not sure why we aren't dating. I feel like there's something holding me back. My friends always ask me why we aren't together, and Hyunjin questioned me one time about us.

Not only that, I have major trust issues. You must have no idea how long it took me to trust Jisung and he's known me the longest out of all of my friends.

In my mind, I feel like we should just stop playing around and be together, because I do trust him. He's proved that I can. But what if I'm not what he's really looking for? What if he changes his mind. Maybe I shouldn't think about it but I can't help myself.