Have you ever been in love?
Have you ever felt your legs shaking with nervousness?The butterflies in your stomach?The genuine smiles?His hands in places he didn't ask permission to put them?The vomit rising when you couldn't say no?The feeling of guilt...?
I have, I have felt it, and I still do.I still feel the hatred, the hatred for the lies, the hatred for the manipulations, for the unpermitted touches.But I also still feel the love, the feeling of wanting to go back, of wanting everything to return to "normal", even though I know that your attitudes were not.
I feel my body freezing and tears streaming down my face when I see you, that's not fair.It's not fair that you deceived me like that,It's not fair that you already have someone else, and it's not fair that you look at me the way you did before.I wonder how you can still speak to me, with another girl, and after everything that's happened between us.
I wonder if you have feelings, or ever did.If someone has hurt you to the point that you've become like this,Or if you're just a bad person and I don't want to believe it, even after everyone says so.And even after everyone warned me, slandered you and insulted you, I could defend you. And I still can.Always protecting your name, like a broken-hearted donkey.
YOU ARE READING
Have you ever been in love?
PoetryOne of the books I wrote about you, but never had the courage to tell you, a book with so many chapters about you, but none about us. The most beautiful lines written, but the most painful.
