Dark room

No longer me

I feel so trapped in this empty room

And I have no clue if I'll get out soon

Why won't they save me from this darkness? I so hate

Wait...

Why are they tracking what I ate?

Why am I in this room with soft floors and walls

All the doors and windows are locked

They say it's to save me from my falls

But my mind is still trapped in this dark, empty room

They say they are here to help, but they won't tell me when I get out

Hopefully, that is soon

But why must I be restrained and wrapped in this white cocoon

No movement is allowed, but as I try to move and escape this cocoon

The people sooth me to sleep like I'm back in my mother's womb

I wake up later to realize I'm not safe

They put a needle in me, and it was a sedative

All those memories of me struggling to get out that white cocoon are repetitive

A "doctor" comes in on the daily, yet he stares blankly at his clipboard

He asks me questions like, "Why did you try to kill yourself with a cord?"

Of course, it was a dumb idea, and duh, I didn't answer him, but my tears just kept coming when he asked that question

I asked him for some pills to numb all the pain, but he didn't care, and he left me to complain

Why must all this happen? Why am I so sad? Why do I have to be trapped in this bad, bad place.

The monsters in the dark room tell me things in my ear, and I can't do anything but believe them

They said it was my fault when my dad killed my mom when I was ten

They told me that I should jump out the window to make all this pain mend.

Of course, I didn't tell the doctor or the evil nurses who forced me to sleep.

But I sure told my demons in my head, and they held me when I weap.

They told me straight to my face that I had schizophrenia and that I was sick.

But all I did was scream and kick when they told me I was fucking sick

How dare they tell me that I need help, I know that I hear and see things but that doesn't mean I'm Ill

All I have to do is take my 5th pill

And I'll be good and I won't be Ill

Right? That's what they all say

If I take my meds then I'll be okay

I'll be fine and I won't have to be trapped in that dark room

Or in that white cocoon....

❤️Authors Note❤️

Hey guys I just wanna say, thank you for reading. And if you don't understand this story is about a girl who is sent to a psych ward and is drugged. She's also been told she has schizophrenia and believes if she takes her meds she'll be okay and she'll finally be able to leave. Her dad had killed her mom when she was just ten and then she was sent to a psych ward for 5 years.

The next chapter is here ❤️