Christmas with the Norris family

10 December

Lando nudge my shoulder to get my attention, but I still couldn't hear him, he took my phone from my hands and looked at the message.. he pulled me close and I burst into tears. Max looked at us in the mirror and Lando handed him my phone. Max read out the message loud:
"Isabella is dead, I'm sorry"
I was crying deep in Landos bosom and he did everything he could to comfort me, he tried to just hold me, he tried to talk to me, he tried to get my breathing under control but nothing helped, Max decided that we were going to stop infront of the Eiffel tower to maybe cheer me up just a little, max knew my biggest dream was to see the Eiffel tower but I barely looked at it, I was just crying in Landos arms.

Flashbacks:
Me and Bella was sitting in her bed watching mean girls on Netflix, I got a message on my phone from the boy I started talking to. Bella watched over my shoulder and said "You need to make a move Lucia! Lando is completely in love with you girl!"
I sighed and did as she told me, I sent a text explaining how much I liked him, as I sent it I threw my phone across the room and put a pillow over my head. Isabella laughed and smiled, Bella was very kind, sometimes a little too kind, her ex boyfriend really wanted to do stuff she didn't want to but her kindness couldn't say no..

End of flashbacks:

Lando held me close and we started walking back to the car, I sat down shivering cause I was tired, cold and completely broken. Lando gave me his light grey essentials hoodie and I put it on before laying down in his lap, I did really not care that I needed to have a seat belt on, fuck that.

Lando held me close and gave me his phone to use some distraction, as smart as he was he didn't remember my password and I didn't have the energy to unlock it, instead I used his phone, I went to instagram and immediately found a picture of Bella, her mother posted it as goodbye, I started to cry again and Lando took the phone from me and pulled me close, he put the hood on my head cause he knew how bad I needed comfort when I was so sad, he knew I hated to be seen this broken even if it was only me, Lando and Max in the car. The hood was like to get me away from everything around me. It was quiet in the car the only sounds was my sobbing and the V8 engine. After a long time Lando managed to get me to fall asleep in his comfort, Max called our family explaining what have happened and that mini Christmas won't be the same as the other years.

We drove through Belgium in silence, it didn't take more than 3 hours to do so as Max isn't the best to hold speed limits, we drove into the Netherlands, I was still sleeping in Landos lap with the hood over my head, I was facing his stomach as Max drove into Hasselt, the place where we grew up. It was not much snow but a thin layer was covering the ground. As we pulled up to our old house I could barely go out, I had so much memories with Isabella here. I was still hiding in Landos chest as we walked out, my mom and dad was standing there, holding their distance from each other, stubborn as they are.

I walked and hugged my mom for a long time, I was crying and my dad asked what's wrong but I didn't answer, Max told him and we walked into the house, I couldn't be without Lando for a second without breaking down, my mom was making Christmas's dinner in the kitchen while me, Lando, max, Luka and Lio, the cute little puppy Oscar was laying on my chest sleeping and Lando was sitting close to me if I needed some form of comfort. "Are you okay Lu?" Lando whispered and I looked at him with bloodshot eyes from all the crying. "I don't know.." I whispered back and held Oscar close to my chest, Oscar was a cute little golden retriever puppy, he was only 8 months. Lando moved closer and kissed the top of my head. "Tell me if anything is too much and I'll help you out Lu" he said and I tried to smile but yeah, didn't really go as planned since I just lost my best friend to suicide. I tried to take deep breaths but didn't really succeed, I broke down again hiding my face in Oscar's fluffy fur. "It's going to be okay Lu" Lando said while holding me tight.