I just want a life like in a movie | Natasha Romanoff x Reader | MCU Black Widow

10 - I meannn

Y/N'S POV:

"I mean, if I could be trusted again. I would like to work again." I say unsure if that is the correct thing to do.

"With me or with them?" He says pointing first at him and then at Natasha and Wanda.

I think for a bit. I have a clear preference for where I would like to go. But if I am not trusted I prefer not even trying.

So I looked up Natasha. I read her composure and facial expression. She is fiddling with her fingers under the sleeve of her sweater. Not making unnecessary eye contact.

I cleared my throat in the hope she would look at me, in the eyes.

"Would I be trusted, if I did come back?" I ask, afraid of her response.

"Well at first no, but now that we have seen what you went through. If we explain that to the others, we will trust you again. Right, Nat?" Wanda says with a tiny smile on her face full of empathy.

Natasha just nods in response which kinda disappoints me, but I understand, after all, all's my fault.

"I'm sorry Natasha"

So now, here I am packing my stuff from my old apartment. there are 3 agents following every step I take. I guess to be sure I don't run off.

So I open everything with caution, only taking the necessities (shirts, sweaters, jeans, shoes, jacket,...). Then I head over to the bathroom for my skincare, never leaving with those. It was from the brand 'the outset' which I loved, but they also cost a lot of money.

The SHIELD agents must have taken away every weapon I own. As there was no sign of any gun, knife, lighter,... .

Then I go to my nightstand and open the inbuilt lock drawer. But when I open it I see that my little box is gone. I threw everything else out of there to see if it was hidden under something or whatever. But no, it was just gone.

I feel my heart rate rising as my hands begin trembling. For something I took so much care for in the last 20 years, and now just gone as if I had lost it a long time ago.

I stayed still, I was not trembling anymore but losing it felt like a part of myself that's lost.

"You ready to go miss Y/L/N?" An agent said that I had never seen before. Must be new, he looked a bit stressed and unsure when he spoke.

I nod and stand up. I take my backpack on my back and follow the first guy. The other two are behind me.

After a 30-minute ride, we arrived back at the compound. I see some of the Avengers waiting for me.

I step out and am greeted by Wanda and Vision who wish me a 'welcome back at the compound'. To wish I just chuckle.

They guided me back inside and showed me my new room. Since my old one was taken by someone else.

They gave me some time to arrange my room and give me some time to process whatever happened. The room was a lot smaller, but at least still on the same floor.

I love the feeling of being here again. The feeling that there is always someone to help you out, they don't even have to like you but are always helpful. And I know I should be grateful to be given this opportunity AGAIN. But there is still a part of me that thinks they would never look at me the same.

They know I lied once, well more times actually, but about one topic. So what keeps them from thinking I won't do the same again?

The only way for them to know that is if Wanda reads my mind 24/7 which, well I do not want.
It made me wonder if Wanda even told the team after I left what she already knew about me. From that time I had a whole breakdown in the shower.

Kate's room! Yes, this was Kate's old room. Of course, she was only meant to be here a few weeks, and this was the only room left free on the floor. I wonder who took in my room then?

*knock knock*

"Come in," I say while guessing who it might be.
Could be Wanda, Tony hmm maybe Bucky or Sam?

"Hey," Clint comes in. Standing in the door opening waiting for my approval that he could enter.

"Hey," I respond making the little hand gesture that meant that he could come in.

"I came here for 3 things. First of all, Fury wants you to fill in a whole document about what you are going to set yourself up in, missions, reports, paperwork, assistance, training, that's due tomorrow." He says and lets a bunch of papers fall on my desk.

"Second of all, Wanda told us what happened and what she knew a few months ago. After you left, we never stayed mad at you because she said that you were just scared to be rejected. But Natasha also told us you strangled her, we could see the mark that it had left! What's that about?" He says, being protective over his best friend.

"I did not mean to strangle her! It was a reflex at first, and then I was too choked to take it away! And she didn't do anything either so we just stood there without moving. Can you tell her I'm sorry about that, please?" I say hoping that it would make sense to him.

"You're saying sorry to her." He says firmly not giving me any place to argue.
"I doubt she would want to talk to me," I say remembering the looks she had given me today.

"You do it. And then the third thing is that we have a meeting for tasks tomorrow that is mandatory. Everyone kind of chooses if they want to cook, what day, grocery shopping,... We change every few months but as you are here now officially, not just a mission from SHIELD, you have to participate. Jarvis will send you a reminder tomorrow" He informs me.

"Okay, I will be there," I say making a mental note to ask Jarvis how late.

"Oh and dinner will be ready around 7 pm, I do recommend you eat something beforehand. Kate's cooking is not always great." He says smiling at the thought.

"Is Kate still here?" I ask hopeful. I liked her the time I showed her around.

"Yeah, she is. Who do you think took in your old room?" He says smirking, then walking out.
"See you later!" He says and closes the door.