I need help, but can't ask for one

I feel sorry for myself,
When I need help, I can't ask for one.
I don't know why, but whenever I' m in need my brain instantly tells me to not bother anyone

I feel sorry for myself,
Because, I used to believe in myself, that I can do anything without anyone's help, but maybe they are correct when they say "no one's an island"

I feel sorry for myself,
Because everything I wanted was to be happy
I never thought, love can break me
Friendships can make me feel lost
And family can make me feel worthless

I feel sorry for myself,
In times where, my friends need someone and I'm there
And when I need someone, I cant ask for one

I feel sorry for myself,
There were times that I wanted to k*ll myself