summertime sadness - issac garcia

awkward car rides

bailey's pov :

i hate my life. and i truly do. and i hate how we have to move in with these random people, the walter family. i have never met them in my life but i know that mom talked about them all the time to me, jackie and lucy.

before she died.

now it's just me and jackie, alone. her uncle richard could have taken us in but apparently mom and dad wanted the walter's to take jackie or lucy in if anything happened to them. and since they are gone aswell as lucy, i have to go with her to the walter's because i have no biological family left.

i really fucking miss my dad and i'm leaving all my friends behind, even thought i had really no friends. when my dad died i stopped talking to everyone even jackie and lucy for a time being. i know jackie is trying to be strong for me but i see she's hurting she just copes with it better then me.

she busies herself with so many things to get her mind off of the incident, whereas as soon as my dad died i turned to weed to cope and to forget the world around me. and it's gotten worse since the death of the howard's.

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me and jackie are in kathrine's car she just picked us up from the airport and is driving us back to her house. jackie is zoning in and out of conversation with kathrine, while i'm completely avoiding conversation if i can by having my earbuds in blasting old money by lana del rey and reading a random ass book from jackie's bag.

"bailey, sweetie how was the flight?" "um it was ok, a little bumpy but it wasn't that bad" i put on a fake, no teeth smile so she could see in her mirror and she gives me almost a sympathetic smile.

which makes me want to jump out of the car window.

we finally arrived and my anxiety is through the roof so immediately ask katherine where the bathroom is. as she is leading me and jackie into the front of the house a small boy is running around and runs in a circle around me about 4 times till he runs off "that's benny don't mind him-" as soon as she was about to finish ever sentence he comes back with a foam sword and runs out the door.

i look over at jackie to see her already looking at me and we share a look that is just flat out saying,

what the actual fuck.

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> hey y'all hope you all enjoy this little intro <33