LOST

chapter 1

Hi guys I'm kinda new at this so please uh be patient with me, there maybe mistakes but please don't be offended. This story will be written in the character's points of view thanks

Nina's POV

It has been a few days since his death.

Tomorrow is the day I have to bid my final goodbye and give a speech. I don't know if I have enough strength for that.

These past few days, all I have done is remain locked up in my room, lie on my bed and stare at the ceiling, reminiscing that day.

The pain doesn't feel like it's going to leave anytime soon nor do the memories that keep flashing in my head. The love I have for him keeps multiplying a thousand fold.

Oh, God! Why did he have to leave me? He knew I'd be nothing without him.

Nothing... absolutely nothing.

At this point the tears were falling so hard.

"Tell me, what am I going to say to them tomorrow? I don't even know if I can stand before all those people, D. I am not strong enough!" I exclaimed. I couldn't breathe, it felt like he was right there, listening to me.

"No, I am not strong - I can't even imagine what I am going to do without you. Please come back! I miss you so much. I love you so much that it hurts," I choked out. I had so much I wanted to tell him, but  I couldn't- emotions took over and I began to sob.

"Tell me this is all a dream, nightmare that I need to wake up from and that you'll be right there when I wake up," I whispered, hoping he would answer

If someone had told me a year ago that I would be depressed over someone's death, laughing would have been my only response.

Don't get me wrong, I am not an insensitive person, but I just didn't give a hoot about anyone back then...

Until Drake came.

He changed everything,  he made me feel so vulnerable and now he is gone. Oh crap, what am I gonna do?
Then it hit me: he left me, he left me knowing I was vulnerable and alone- knowing I was going to be devastated and broken. In that moment, my pain channeled into anger, I walked over to my desk and began to smash anything I could get a hold of.

I was blinded by my anger as I continued trashing my room with all the strength I had in me.

I threw anything I could get my hands on. I didn't care about how expensive or precious it might have been, it was going to be no more.

I paused as my breathing got heavier and faster. I started panting due to exhaustion and stood there like a maniac with no direction whatsoever.

I begun turning around confused as hell and in search of something to vent my rage on, I stopped when I saw my reflection staring back at me in a mirror.

I was a nobody. I lost everything, and everyone I cared about. I felt nothing but the combination of disgust and anger as I continued to stare. I needed to get rid of that girl, the girl who couldn't be happy.

The girl who lost everything including her purpose and will.

I screamed out of frustration, dashed towards the mirror, and began to pour my remaining anger out using my fist.

I kept hitting the mirror until blood oozed out and I felt numb. My whole body was numb.

I just needed that girl gone.

"Nina! Stop!" Ryan's voice echoed.

"I can't! She's still there, I need her to leave!" I yelled as I continued hitting the pathetic girl in front of me.