LOST

chapter 3

Nina's POV

Walking in the woods brought anything but peace. I should have known better than to think I'd ever find solitude here. Every path I took kept reminding me of him ‐ of all the things we did: running after one another, taking pictures of him while he was admiring something, playing pranks on each other, lying down next to each other holding hands and even just even just staring at one another whilst enjoying the serene environment.

As I kept walking, I couldn't take it anymore, I felt the world crashing down on down on me, everything felt so stiff and heavy that it was suffocating me. I couldn't keep it in, I had to do something about it.

I screamed loudly with all the strength I could muster, causing my throat to hurt, but I didn't care. The tears that I thought were no more came rushing down my cheeks I felt weak and fell onto my knees; a dark cloud hovered over me.

Had no idea how long it had been since I got into this position. I brought my knees closer to my chest with my arms wrapped around them, and placed my chin on top, staring up ahead with eyes filled with tears as I continued to cry.

I kept seeing and remembering my Drake.

"You told me it would be alright, Drake. You said I would get through it. You said I was strong, but you lied. I am not strong, I am weak, Drake, I am so weak that I don't think I can ever be alright or get through this." I cried.

"You should have taken me with you. Why did you leave me here to suffer all alone? You took everything with you: my soul, my heart, my smile, my laughter and my life. " I cried so hard until the feeling of exhaustion washed over me, and I felt completely empty.

Too empty even and it scared me, I have to end it all. The emptiness made me realize the pain wasn't worth it, there was nothing left after all.

It was time to go.

The cliff was the best place to leave.

I staggered towards the cliff, I could feel my eyes closing, the darkness kept closing in with every step, but I didn't stop. I kept pushing.  

I love you Drake.

"I am coming so we can be together at last," I whispered to myself.

Darkness, total darkness was all I woke up to.

I heard people talking, although I couldn't make out what they were saying, their voices sounded familiar.

Where the hell am I?

The memories began to pour in. I remembered being in the woods crying and then nothing.

Wait, if I was in the woods, am I still there? Who are these people? What do they want? Am I dead?

Holy smokes, am I in hell? I mean, I heard people who commit suicide end up in hell but I'm not ready.

I tried to open my eyes and look for him, the devil - if you are wondering who, however, as I moved my fingers and eyes, I heard a familiar and irritating voice.
"Nina, are you okay? Can you hear me? If you can, please blink."

Not wanting to listen to his horrid voice any longer, I opened my eyes to shut him up.

"Are you okay?" I nodded slightly, checking my surroundings while waiting for the devil to make an appearance. Sadly, though, I was met by blue eyes which happened to belong to Ryan. He looked down at me with concern etched on his face.

Just great.

"What happened? I am not supposed to be here. Why am I still here? I am supposed to be dead," I said the last part so faintly that I was probably the only person who heard it.