Always Giving In To You (NetJames Fanfic)

3 - Tired

CHAPTER 3

I woke up early the next day and prepared to go to work. We'll start filming at 9am today. I arrived early and prepared my hair and makeup. Net arrived minutes later. He ignored me again. So he's back to avoiding me again huh? Does his faen tell him that? To ignore me? Wait!! I need to go to the rooftop and relax. I'm having a negative mindset this morning and I don't like it.

I sighed and looked down at the busy streets. I'm getting sensitive, I get irritated by Net ignoring me. I should act professional, we're working. I went down and minutes later we started filming. The filming went well but when I approached Net during rest time he ignored me again. I tried many times. I don't like this feeling, I think I can't keep my cool any longer.

When we finished filming I confronted him.

"Phi, can we talk again privately?" I asked him. He just looked at me and nodded.

We went inside our waiting room it's just the two of us there.

"So what's your problem again? Why are you ignoring me? I'm getting tired of this P'Net!" I asked him. I controlled my emotions.

"Nothing James" he answered angrily. Why is he angry?

"Nothing but you're obviously angry! Just tell me Phi!" I begged. I've been holding back my tears. It's the first time he's ignored me for this long and got angry at me.

"What do you want, James? Tell me what do you want?" he asked calmly now.

"I want us to be back to normal, not this. You're ignoring me and giving me cold shoulders. You tell me, what have I done wrong to you."

"Nothing James, am I not allowed to be tired? Do I have to be always following you? To always give in to you? Do I need to report every single thing to you?" he asked me and looked down. What does he mean tired? Tired of me? I felt hurt. My heart was broken by his question.

"What do you mean by what you've just said?" I asked nervously. I think I'm not ready to hear his answer.

"You're not dumb James, you understand it. We're an imaginary couple on cam but we're not a real couple off cam. We don't need to be clingy to each other if there's no camera. We should be professional, problems like this will be a hindrance during our work. We should not interfere further with our personal lives" he said flatly. I'm shocked by what he just said.

I looked him straight in his eyes. Is this still MY NET? My? Haha what do you mean by MY, he's never yours James. Wake up, he just told you that you're not a real couple! Judging by how my heart hurts now, I admit that I like him. I like him very much because my heart is hurting big time! I realized that I like him at times like this huh? The way I got irritated by him for ignoring me and got jealous just by staring at his IG post with a girl's hand. I'm so dumb. I hate him, he made me need him and he'll leave me hanging. I got used to him giving in to me everytime, got used to his annoying presence, and got used to him pampering me. So all of the things he did with me is all an act? All for fan service? How hurt can I be now? My tsundere self can't take this.

"So you're saying you are tired of me and we should stop being clingy?" I asked. I want to congratulate myself. I still haven't shed a tear even though I'm hurting this much. He's still not looking at me, thank god I don't want him to see my face right now. I bet I looked very ugly holding my tears back.

"Okay, I understand Phi. Sorry for overstepping your boundary. You can count on me doing my best to be professional. Sorry for wasting your time. I'll go first. Bye."

Finally he looked at me and he was shocked to see my face. Why? Do I look ugly? Haha. I tried so hard to smile at him. I turned around to get my things and went out quickly from this room. As soon as I went out, my tears rolled down my face. I can't hold back my tears. I looked down so that they wouldn't see me crying. I walked faster. And I heard Net calling me but I got to the elevator. How can I find a cab at this hour? I went to the street and I heard a car honking. When I looked it was Joong again. Why is he always lingering around here in our company?

He went out to his car immediately, I heard someone calling me again and it was Net but Joong dragged me inside his car.

"Hey Phi! Why are you crying?" he asked me worriedly.

"Joong, let's go. Why are you even here?" I asked him.

"Oh you didn't read my text? I texted you that Dunk wants to hang out with you. He came back this morning." he explained. He started his engine and drove.

"So why are you crying out there Phi? Who hurt you? Is it P'Net? I saw him coming at us a moment ago.''

"Joong, I like him." I confessed and cried again. I felt a little relieved when I shared my feeling.

"Wow, you just realized it now? I know just by looking at you when you are talking about him, your eyes sparkle phi!" he pointed it out. I am shocked,

"What really?"

"Yeah. Obviously!"

"So why are you crying? Did he reject your confession?" he curiously asked.

"What? I haven't even said my feelings for him, I just realized it a moment ago when we're arguing." I said.

"Do you still want to hang out now? Or you want me to accompany you tonight? I'll just text Dunk if you're not comfortable talking about this with him." he carefully asked me.

"No, it's okay."

"We'll just hang out in my condo, dunk is there right now. You can also sleep over you know," he suggested.

We arrived at his condo. Dunk greeted me and he noticed immediately that I'd cried. He comforted me after we changed into comfy clothes, and decided to eat and drink wine later while talking about my problem.

I shared with them what happened to us that day. I realized my feelings today, Net got tired of me and he said we should not interfere with each other's personal lives. Just great! I cried my heart out in front of them. I felt relieved they're here with me ready to listen and give me advice. I should stop crying or else I'll be looking like a bloated fish tomorrow. The filming will start at 3pm.

It's already midnight and we're still drinking wine and still chatting about little things. Net have called me and Yim also but I didn't pick up their calls. Sorry I need time to relieve all these feelings before talking to all of them. We decided to sleep at 2am. It's been a long day. Tomorrow is another day! 

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A/N : sorry if they are always fighting or full of misunderstanding. I don't know where this story goes, I just wrote things I imagined without thinking too much. So again I'm very sorry if this is so messy..