3005 | geminifourth

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And with that, Gemini stormed out of the house with tears in his eyes. Before leaving, he punched the mirror in the living room and made Fourth shivering. He just ran to his car.

Fourth stayed inside and he was shaking. His hands were holding Gemini's t-shirt he was wearing, and the little mirror leftovers were touching his milky skin.

"You're dead to me.."

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Days went without realizing it, and it was already a week since these guys didn't talk. Not having each other side by side was the hardest thing they have ever experienced, especially for Fourth with this health and mental after his dad's betrayal.

He only wanted Gemini to understand him, but Gemini pointed everything out to himself. It was quite boring for Fourth because he also had rights in the relationship. Maybe he didn't listen to Gemini, but now he was regretting not doing so, but it all happened because he was very mad at the moment.

Fourth stayed home all those days, while Gemini was always outside alone. He stayed at his forest house, it was a secret house that Fourth and him were planning to build when they got older. It was going to be a wedding surprise for Fourth.

But now, it wasn't going to happen.

Gemini was staying on the balcony of the house and slowly sipping his whiskey with blood red eyes and grinned teeth. His mind never stopped thinking about Fourth and it realized how desperate he was for Fourth. He still had man to look after Fourth though. They were spying on Fourth everywhere, just to make sure he was okay.

"I can't take it anymore. I can't."

Gemini stood up from his seat. He started to walk around the house like he was going to die.

"What's the point of living? My dad is gone, my love is gone, my job is gone.. I'm.. i'm..."

Gemini opened the cabinets and looked for medicine. He wanted to kill himself right now.

As you saw from the last chapters, his mental health was bad and he was undoubtfully going crazy. It was an easy decision for him to write a letter to Fourth and just leave himself to death.

"Jesper, leave the house and lock the doors. Make sure you watch Fourth now all night. Now and forever. And when i'll be gone.. he is on your care.."

Jesper didn't say anything but he couldn't help but worrying. He decided to send a text to Fourth about Gemini's condition.

"Khun Night, Khun North doesn't seem okay and i'm afraid he might do something to hurt himself. I'll come to pick you up if you let me. Just call me when you get this message."

But Fourth was not in the mood to check his phone. His battery died and he just charged his phone and now he was lying on bed with Gemini's slowly fading scent on his pillow.

Gemini was in the bathroom meanwhile. He opened the cold water of the bathtub, and decided that he wanted to enjoy the last minutes before his death. He placed pictures of him and Fourth around the bathroom, used Fourth's fragrance for scent and decided to write a letter.

"How can i be so desperate for your love Fourth? How can i kill my selfish self, just for your love? Maybe it's the best for both of us. If i continue like this, i'll keep hurting you. And i'm the last person who wants to do that. You really deserved better Fourth, i'm so sorry that i fucking sucked and made your mental health way worse than it was. After this i know it's gonna be so hard for you to move on because it would be for me if something happened to you. How can i be the one to hurt you the most, when i don't want anything to hurt you? I used to promise you that, whoever hurts you, i'll finish that person. I'm keeping my promise now Fourth. I'm finishing the person who hurts you the most. If you're happiness and smile is gonna come back after my death, then it is worth it Fourth. Everything is worth is only for your beautiful smile. Please forgive me Fourth. I don't wanna cause a trauma. Find a new person for yourself, you are easily lovable because you are perfect. You don't deserve to be treated like shit. If anyone hurts you after i'm gone, you can be sure that i'll be watching him and haunt him whenever i see a single tear in your eyes. Remember, your single tear, is a reason for me to kill everyone else in the world, no matter who he is.

I love you, Fourth. And i always will. I loved you on Earth, and i will keep loving you from hell, heaven, other planets and maybe other universes. Let's meet in a life where we are happy and we have no consequences to be in a relationship. Even if my heart stops beating, my brain stops working, and my body dies now, my love for you is never going to die. I'll keep it in my soul forever."

~Your North, Gemini, 3005, and only love.

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I'm not crying.. you are.