I am so happy that one of my friends are with me in our group honestly,
well someday i know that there will be nothing in the world that i would care about which would be my best friend that i really care about, but i don't know what to do anymore because i don't think miss havisham would let me act on it because she is old fashioned...
But i'm scared of what she would say because well it's the fact that i've never had a crush on someone before and i don't think magwitch would be very happy he's overprotective of me so it's hard to ask anyone, but she is on our side so yeah, i don't know anymore.
But i haven't really told miss havisham that i've been bullied a lot, and i don't really know if i should um tell her because i don't want her to worry about me and not let me on missions with other people because she doesn't want me to get hurt.
it is now the first day of my mission and i am so nervous trying to fight my anxiety of something bad is going to happen...
The mission didn't go that well.
I got hurt right in the arm and stomach. i won't go into much detail because it is really gorey and miss havisham doesn't want me to tell anyone, but they will find out anyway.
so, i was on bed rest for the rest of the week and house arrest because i nearly died, and miss havisham hated that, and magwitch hates me now because of it...
I know he will forgive me some day but not right now anyway as i was saying miss havisham wants to inject me with this serum that wil turn me into a trybrid but still be a legendary alpha and i said yes because i will become great someday.
And i know i can do this, but i feel like i can't because im not strong enough, but miss havisham keeps on saying that (i am strong enough to do this, but you need to believe in yourself, but i know that is hard for you so don't force yourself).
I feel like she is wrong about me, but she thinks that she made the right choice, but she didn't...
Anyway, I don't know what to do about my power's like how to train them because im on house arrest.
I do want to get better, but i need to train what would miss havisham say if she saw me training at 3 am in the morning and going at it like i normally do and i normally hurt my hand as well and my legs because i normally train with Magwitch.
Magwitch normally goes to bed a 4 so i can just get up at 4:30 and start training just to make sure they don't find out but they are light sleepers so it might be hard...
So, i was trying to train without them finding out but...
They found out which is bad because they now won't let me do any missions for another 6 weeks which i cannot last because doing missions are the thing i live for now especially that my friend is doing the missions instead of me so i cannot do this anymore...
I really want to give up but miss havisham will say don't give up...
And i told miss havisham about me dating my friend that is in the group and she said yes which i am so happy about this because i really love her, but i don't know if she loves me, so i am scared about it...
Miss havisham and magwitch literally said if she breaks my heart that...
she is going to drop kick her and he is going to bail her out of jail. i'm not going to lie but they really are my new parents because they see me as their own child, and i see them as my parents so i doubt they will mind if i call them mum and dad...
will they mind...
i don't know what to do because i can't train, and i can't do anything else so what am i supposed to do now...
I'm always bored now because of it i'm sure my wound is healed now it's been a few months so i'll check and so i did check, and i checked it with miss havisham and magwitch and now i can train and do missions again which i am so happy about it.
