Supernova (Tsukasa Tenma Angst)

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"I'm not worthy."

No, that's not true.

"You're not worthy to become a star."

Be quiet, that's not true.

"You will never be a star."

No, no, just shut up! That's not true!

"You won't ever become a-"

Tsukasa woke up.

"What was that...? A dream..?" He thought, rubbing his eyes. The incident happened yesterday. It wasn't any better that Nene and Rui went to his school. Today was a Tuesday.

Tsukasa has been a little off since that happened.

But it's okay, he'll go back to normal just as a star should.

Right?

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He was at school. He wasn't this quiet. He was NEVER this quiet. Did what Rui say really affect him that much? It was just some mere words! He shouldn't have to care so much...

But he did.

"You're not worthy to become a star."

How many other people thought that aswell other than Rui? Did his parents think so? Did Toya think so? Did Saki think so? How many people out there also thought that he wasn't worthy to be a star?

If he wasn't worthy to be a star, then what was he worthy of?

Was he... Worthless?

Impossible.

"Hey, didya hear? Tsukasa's first show was a failure!" Somebody laughed out. "Seriously? Thank God! He's literally so annoying, it's what he gets." Another responded.

"What... How do they know...?" Tsukasa pondered. He didn't see any of his classmates at the show... How did they know?

Unless Rui or Nene spread it around.

"No, not possible!" He quickly shook his head and got rid of the thought, before doing his regular routine of barging into the classroom.

But today was different.

He had no energy and instead just barged in and didn't say anything. He didn't even go "The star of 2-A is here!" or some shit. No, he just barged in and walked over to his desk. Even his classmates didn't expect it, but they were relieved. They got to have a break from Tsukasa for once. They were so happy. One of his classmates were so happy that they began laughing out of joy.

"Haha! He finally went quiet!" One spoke aloud, poking fun at Tsukasa. The blonde pretended not to hear, though. 

"Ugh, what are you doing, Tsukasa?! Get a grip!" He said, before taking a deep breath and gathering all of his energy. "I am Tsukasa Tenma, I am a future world star! Yesterday may have been unexpecte-" He was going to finish until someone threw a crumpled up piece of paper at his head which made him stop talking. "Shut up Tenma, we're all tired of you. Do you even know how to be quiet?" They said to him.

"Well, a star should always be entertaining his fans, so-"

"We aren't your fans, Tenma. Just act normal and zip your mouth..."

Did his classmates think the same as Rui, too? Did they think of him badly? Did they also think he wasn't worthy to be a star?

Really?

Tsukasa really didn't want to, but he went quiet and complied with his classmate. He was confused, he didn't do anything to them.

He was just having fun, really.

He thought they were having fun with him aswell.

There it was again, that weird feeling he wasn't used to. "What is this...?" He thought to himself. Tsukasa didn't like this feeling. It was like his chest was closing in on itself, and it felt like his heart was stung with something painful. It was like his heartstrings were being toyed with like a marionette. The feeling was quite similar to when he was young.

It's the feeling of being unwanted.

He didn't like it.

Why was he acting weird? Stupid, pathetic! A star should always act happy! They should always be unbothered by what other people say! They should always be perfect!

Tsukasa sighed and smiled, even though for some reason, it was so damn hard to.

He sat down and the familiar voice of the purple-haired boy echoed throughout his mind again.

"You're not worthy to become a star."

He's heard these words so much it was beginning to get tiring, but the impact it had stayed the same. Tsukasa still felt like everything he had worked for was broken in a second.

"This isn't normal. Stars shouldn't be like this. Why am I like this?" He said in his thoughts. He was acting unusual, and even he himself didn't know why.

The bell rang.

He didn't even know how much time had passed, but somehow, it was already lunch.

"Ugh, lunch..." He groaned.

Usually he would go eat at the rooftop where he would meet Rui and Nene, but he was probably unwanted up there this time, so he ate at the benches outside of the school and near the field. The atmosphere was calming and peaceful, no one calling him names and no one to soil his ego this time.

He had been quieter than he wanted today. Seriously, what was going on with him? Why was he so bad at handling his emotions?

"Haha, guess I should enjoy my luncheon as there is no one to bother me!" He laughed, feeling more calm and energetic with nobody around.

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While Tsukasa was eating his lunch, there were two people on the rooftop talking about him.

"A lot of people have been talking about yesterday..." The grayish-green haired girl enunciated. "I really messed up, urgghhh.. Even Tsukasa got sooo annoyed! Well, he was annoying in the first place, so I don't really care..."

"It's alright, Nene. There'll be a next time. Tsukasa just got worked up, he didn't have a right to get mad at you. Maybe the next time should be without Tsukasa, don't you agree? I can't really see him in our troupe after what had happened..." Rui responded, sighing.

"Really? But, what about his dream of becoming a star?"

"He won't be one, we should just continue without him so that his delusion doesn't continue any further." He opened his lunch. "Ew... Nene, let's trade."

"Eat your vegetables, Rui!"

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I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WAS DOING HERE. it was kind of rushed..... next update might be tomorrow!!!!!!! anyway, im going to sleep soon so goodnightttt:P i liked this chapter though EXCEPT FOR THE FACT THAT 1/3 OF MY WORK GOT ERASED AND I HAD TO REWRITE IT. but its fine!!!!!! this chapter was kinda shorter than the other two but still, if anyones reading this, i hope you enjoyed!!! i hope that this reaches a bigger audience, so if anyones been reading this so far, thank you so muuuuchhhh!!!!!
love, kyn