🍃Hi. Honestly I feel like shit, if someone says smth like "omg samee" or "yesss same!!" I might curl up into a ball and cry. I keep on trying to make bids for YouTube or trying to get excersise or trying to socialise but I can't. I just can't. I've been having species dysphoria and I struggle to look at myself. I make drafts, re watch them and I can't even look at myself. Everyone is better than me.🍃
🌸Anyway, today was the last day of school I didn't cry at all. I kinda feel obliged to care because my bsf is rlly sad abt leaving me. Ofc I am sad abt leaving her but I kinda just can't care??? Idk. My brother says I've gone emotionless bc I didn't cry at assembly.🌸
🍄I have a feeling that me and all of my friends won't talk to each other.
during high school. Probably.🍄
🎵I had a few shifts today. One of them hurt. A lot. Idk if this is possible but I think I went unconscious in a shift?? (Not actually unconscious. Ig my thereotype went unconscious and I just kinda laid there.) I partially got out of the shift bc people were in a shift, attacking each other around me and they kept on kicking me. Ny head went kinda numb bc someone feel on my head. I walked to AspenTheLynxTherian and nearly cried to him.🎵
🌿I think that AspenTheLynxTherian and someone else are dating or smth and for some reason that makes me sad. I don't have a crush on either of them. Idk???🌿
🍁I think I have psychosis. I have this thing/person in my head and yesterday or the day before it told me I was going to die that day. We had a conversation and it was planned some time during the day. It never happened. (No shit) We have had multiple conversations since then. Is it trying to tell me smth??? I told Yuhitslozie and I don't think that she cared or took it seriously. I'm probably over reacting but I genuinely think that there is something wrong with me. Help!!!🍁
🍄Ima go sit in bed and watch tiktok until Christmas. Love ya. Bye!🍄
-Alicia
