The crazyness of a goth and unorthodox tattooed dervish

Merry Christmas party

Well, today was a mixed emotions day for me because of some bad drivers on my commute to work and my commute from work. That being said, that wasn't exactly my strong suit is dealing with bad drivers and construction workers. I must admit, I may have blown my gasket a couple of times, which I'm not proud of, but I have to admit that in order to move on with my life. The travesty on the road was just enough for me to want to puke but I didn't that would've been written up right away if I had puked and rage, so I try to keep it under control, so it doesn't get to that point, but didn't start my mouth from overflowing nonetheless and I had nothing nice to say about the other drivers. Other than the one that was driving me to and from my job. That being said, I'm not looking forward to going to work next time because I just don't want to deal with the ah Drivers out there, and the ah Construction workers who rule the world, trying to dominate everything practically everywhere you were to say that my mouth is overflowing again just thinking of that! I was nearly late for the party, because of that goddang The person holding the stop sign, and I would've probably would be doing life if it weren't from my friend, who is driving me from more at the time, because I probably would've knocked his block off! That being said, I'm not proud of having these emotions, but I do acknowledge that they're there. When I finally got to the Christmas party at my group home, it was a lot easier after a little bit of scuffle over how I reacted over a construction worker holding the stop, sign Among other atrocities on the road?! I might be the passenger, but I'm also a bit of a hothead, and I do have road rage from town to time. I must admit that I should seek some help for that, but they're not gonna do jack shit for that!
So when I got there, I had a wage a while before I can join the party and actually take a breather and relax a little bit before going around being nice to everyone I didn't wanna be a phoney b*tch in the first place! So I ended up having to take a long breather before the party started. When the party finally started, I was able to relax and let my hair down. That being said, I was able to enjoy my presence, as in The stuff I got from Santa I know I'm 34 years old shouldn't believe in Santa but at least I shouldn't believe in something at least if you believe in something you have something to lose if you do something immoral! That being said, I was very happy to get some face paint and face paint sponges, as well as a adult colouring book, which I was thinking about getting later on one day, but didn't have the money for it. So that was pretty good and it was as if someone was reading my mind! The one thing that would've made this perfect is Lord of the rings I know I'm obsessed with Lord of the rings because it's my go to book whenever I'm down on my go to movie whenever I'm down. When I was at my old house. I like the second bit of the lord of the rings are two towers. Not because of the title, but because of the plot that goes with it. I like the pools of the ghost so the pools of the dead. I think they are called. That being said, I hope I can see more of the Lord of the rings one day and be able to read them and watch them again. I also enjoyed seeing the make up that I got the face paint, and I was able to see what I was going to go about and I was able to think of designs for my make up my own original designs that came across as esoteric! One being an clown like an insane clown posse clown! Like violent j or Shaggy to dope. That being said, I'm very happy that I got the face paint so I can show her down with the clown I've been since I've been six years old! Is very interesting to see what the makeup will do. I might even do some pagan lines on my face, I know the left are not like my and make up but that is their damn problem not mine, nor are they gonna like my juggalo make up, which is gonna be the darn problem as well, not mine. I don't have to deal with their negativity, they do! So that being said, I can't wait for tomorrow so I can start in on the make up or the face paints. I want to start them up real early in the morning if I'm not groggy, that is and see where I can go from there! I think I'm gonna do a Juggalo clown first before I do anything else that's more simple and more effective than going around cursing and swearing about what should I do with my face paint without having to do elaborate designs that would be more appropriate for me than anything else. I think I'll be doing more juggalo designs than anything else..... A while back, I did do a face painting class and found the perfect face paint that I wanted but I couldn't afford them on Amazon so I asked for them on Christmas and I was able to get them. That being said that was very interesting indeed to find some thing that I was wanting to get in the first place, and not able to get it in the first place, but able to get it now! I got my Picture taken with Santa as well as I was able to commiserate with some of my friends. Something I wouldn't have done if I was still miserable and so thinking about bad drivers and stuff that juggalo idea is that you should not feel sorry for yourself that leads to self-destructive behavior, so I just rather continue on with my life after acknowledging a bad emotion, and just create something out of it, I would've done the make up this evening, but it was too late to do it! Beside someone already mentioned that I should take a shower instead of playing with my face pain, so that being said, I'm kind of whiny about that! Something will come to me in a dream for the make up I know that, for a fact that the make up will come, and they'll come in a dream the idea of the make up that is!
at least I don't have to Waste money on getting my face painted at the fair or anything like that at least that much is true. I am very happy that I got the face paint and the sponges for this reason! The face paint is supposed to be easier to get off, except for the red and the black. I have been forewarned ain't a facepainting class a while back! That being said it won't stop the juggalo to come out!
Also, Something called a wind phone was mentioned to me by a friend. That I should try to go to a nearby one day that has a phone dial up my mother's birthday and be able to talk to her without any qualms. That being said I have a lot to say to her a lot! My mother was very important to me in life, and still . When phones are non-activated or useless phones that are given a new purpose for you to talk to the ones you love that you lost at the same time. Through death. That being said you can talk to them through these phones that are now discontinued. It was a fair that started in Japan, and it just went worldwide, crazy I can believe everyone would want to talk to the people that they cared about before they passed on the spirit world. That being said, I can't wait to go on the trail one day to go to the windphone! I don't know where I would start halfway through. I have a boyfriend, or that I was doing better with my PTSD, or something to that effect! Decisions, decisions.