Prove It | P.Sh

| 18 |

I sighed as I sat in front of the window in my room. I stared right out at the blue sky with my knees pulled up to my chest. I don't get how it went straight over my head with Sunghoon, but not with Jiyeon. He gave off all the signs she did as well.

"How come I am so blind?" I sighed and rubbed my face in my hands, "ah... what do I do?"

"Pick up your phone, perhaps," a voice spoke up and I looked over to see Sunghoon walk up the stairs from the closed door to my room, "17 missed calls."

"I thought you didn't want to talk," I shook my head at him before looking back out the window.

"I was wrong," he admitted to me, making me just hum, "I remembered what you said to Jungwon about Jiyeon. You're right, I need to speak about it with someone. A person I can trust and lean on the most."

"Me?" it came off more as a question than a statement.

"Exactly," he replied, "and it clearly affects you too. So... Come sit with me."

I glanced towards his voice and saw him sitting on my bed and patted a spot on it. I smiled softly before getting up and walking over and sitting down on my bed, pulling my knees up to my chest immediately as I sat beside him.

"You wore the sweater," I commented and he nodded at me.

"I couldn't help but buy it," he excused and picked at the sleeve, "after all, you did say it looked good on me."

"How long?" I questioned, making his smile falter.

"About... six months," he shrugged.

"So even before I came back?" I questioned and he nodded.

"This is why I came to talk. I was scared you would see it as something that only happened after you came home," he pointed out, "I don't want you to blame yourself."

"Why would she do it?" I questioned making him shrug.

"Just small fights," he calmly spoke, "and you know she can pick fights over small things."

"So if you didn't want to kiss her..." I trailed off and he nodded at me.

"She'd slap me lightly, before forcing me," he nodded at me, "or... if I spoke to someone she didn't want me to... mainly girls."

"Such as me," I stated and he nodded, "so when you agreed to help paint my room..."

"The ribs..." he excused with a small chuckle and rubbed the back of his neck making me sigh and close my eyes, "don't blame yourself."

"But you helped me," I stated and he just nodded, "what happens if you break up with her? Will she hurt you then?"

"Most likely," he nodded at me, "but I'm more scared of what she'll do to whoever comes after her."

"Such as what?" I questioned him in confusion.

"From what she said to you, when she accused you of trying to steal me from her... I'm scared she'll hurt whoever I love after her," he said, making me hum.

"But do you love her?"

"No," he bluntly replied, making me sigh and stare straight ahead, "I never did."

"Then why did you date her?" I questioned in disbelief.

"I tried... I tried to get over my first love," he simply replied.

"Figure skating?" I questioned making him let out a small laugh before shaking his head.

"No," he replied, "she moved away and I thought dating Sunmi, who liked me so much, would make me forget her."

"But it didn't," I stated and he shook his head at me.

"And now I regret it more than anything. Because now I love the other girl even more," he sighed and rubbed his eyes.

"Then break up with Sunmi," I stated and he just shook his head at me.

"I can't," he repeated once more, "I can't and I won't leave her."

"Why not?" I questioned him.

"Because the girl I actually love will never love me back, and even if she did and Sunmi found out why I left her... I can't imagine what she would do," he shook his head at me and moved over to sit across from me.

"But... you can't live like that Sunghoon. You can't live in fear," I shook my head at him, "you should be happy."

"Not if it's for the sake of her safety," he shook his head stubbornly, "then it's alright."

"How can you make sure she is safe if you refuse to break it off with Sunmi?" I questioned him.

"I see her everyday," he shrugged at me and inched a tad bit closer.

"You do?" I questioned in surprise and he just nodded at me.

"Isn't it obvious?" he questioned and I just stared at him, "it's you, Soomin... it's you that I'm trying to keep safe."

"It's me... you... you..." I trailed off and pointed to myself as he just nodded, "but why haven't you told me?"

"You do see what a mess I'm in right? Dating one twin, but being completely head over heels for the other," he pointed out with a small laugh as I pushed myself away from my wall and moved closer to look properly into his eyes.

"Tell me you're lying," I said, making him frown, "tell me it's not true."

"But... it is," he replied in a clueless manner as I just shook my head at him.

"No it's not. Sunmi is the loveable twin, I'm the wallflower," I stated.

"Then you're the prettiest there is," he stated and brushed some of my hair behind my ear, in a careful and delicate manner.

"You're lying," I shook my head at him.

"I'm not Soomin," he spoke softly.

"I don't believe you," I shook my head, making him sigh at me.

"How do I then convince you?" he questioned.

"You don't. You're lying," I denied.

He sighed at me before looking back up and leaning in with the flash of lighting. Before I even had reacted he had placed his lips on mine, and grabbed the back of my head, to make sure I didn't move away. I knew this was so wrong, but at the same time it felt so right and perfect.

"Sunmi," I muttered and pushed him away with my hands on his chest.

"Screw Sunmi," he whispered in return and leaned back in before wrapping an arm around my waist and pulling me closer to him. Letting me melt more into the kiss as his soft lips enchanted me. Once again my logical senses took over and gently pushed his chest.

"We can't," I shook my head at him, as he was less than a centimeter from kissing me again.

"Please let me... I want to remember how it feels to kiss you," he breathed with a pair of sad eyes looking down at me, "just once."

"I can't do this to Sunmi," I shook my head once more, feeling my nose brush against his.

"After all she's done to you?" he let out a low chuckle making me go silent, "just tell me... do you like me? Was Sunmi right?"

"You have no idea," I muttered, making him let out a sigh against my lips before closing his eyes tightly, "I thought I would forget you in Australia."

"Do you still... want me?" he questioned.

"Yes," I whispered, making him open his eyes again, this time something in them glimmered.

"You mean it?" he questioned and I slowly nodded, not moving my eyes from his.

"Heck I probably love you Park Sunghoon," I sighed at him, "always have."

"I'll break it off with Sunmi," he nodded, making me just stare at him, "if you promise to be there with me."

"Of course," I nodded at him.

"And be mine afterwards," he stated and I nodded once more, "I mean it Soomin, please."

"I promise," I whispered. He immediately placed his lips back on mine and once again I melted completely.