Kiss it better

3. Black out

"I'm back" Sebastian said as he slipped into the seat opposite me. He looked like a character straight out of a horror movie. You know, the type where the boy takes a girl out to dinner and the girl obliges not knowing that she's the dinner.
I stared at his face, remembering how I'd blush anytime he looked at me only a week ago. How my emotions managed to disappear completely within two days, I had no idea. I tried to feel something, anything for this boy but my emotions were just nada. I couldn't even feel hatred.
Wondering how my prince charming had turned out to be a cheater and my friend, a backstabbing mother trucking....

"Why are you looking at me like that" he smirked as he ordered his food.
That stupid smirk, if he thinks I still have a thing for him then he's soooo wrong.

"What did I do?"

His smirk dropped. "W- what do you mean?"

"Was I a bad girlfriend?" I asked, genuinely curious "How could you cheat on me with my friend?" I was surprised at the calmness of my voice.
Go me for not sounding hysterical

"I, um.....well......uh" He stuttered.

"First things first, for how long did you cheat on me?" He looked to the ground. "Answer me" I said through gritted teeth.

"S-six  months" My eyes widened into saucers.

"Six months?" I raised my voice in disbelief.

"A-and a half" He murmured. At least he was being honest.

I shut my eyes tightly as my calm composure slipped away slowly. I did some breathing exercises to help me calm down.
In
Out
In
Out
Iiiiiiiinnnnn
Ooooouuuuuttttt

When I was finally calm again, I spoke.
"So,.... " I calmly said."We dated for two years and for the last six months, you lost interest in me" I held back a sob "Why did you stick around?"

"Babe, it's not like that....."

"Don't call me babe, continue"

"It's not what you think, I promise. I didn't lose interest in you, I.....I love you, I really do, I want nothing more than for us to get back together. So please, c-can we move past this mistake, we're stronger than this" His pleading looked so sincere. But for the tad bit of rationality I had somewhere in the back of my head, I would've caved in and forgiven him.

"I asked you why you stuck around, anything else you say is bull" I was beyond pissed.

"I didn't leave because I love you"

"If you loved me, then why.. why did you cheat on me?"

"C-cuz I was needy,.... okay" he tugged at the roots of his hair in exasperation.

My whole body froze as I processed what he said.

"I hadn't been laid in almost two years B, two fucking years, and you were not helping matters. You were always such a tease, but you'd shy away whenever I touched you. How I lasted two years is a mystery"

"Oh so this is my fault"

"I'm not saying.....you know what, yeah, it's your fault. I'm a guy, I'm eighteen and I have needs you know, you knew about it but you were always such a fucking tease. At first, I thought it was sexy, how you played hard to get but later on, it got frustrating. I didn't want to force myself on you, so the moment Sabrina came up to me, I didn't object, I lost my self control. I decided to let off all that sexual frustration but then one thing lead to another and I just couldn't stop, I was too lost in the heat.........."

I couldn't even listen to him anymore because I knew what would happen if I did. I knew what he was doing, Seb was laying the guilt trip, he knew me too well to know that I'd forgive him if he made me look guilty. I used to fall for it before but I won't fall no more.
Hey that last part kinda rhymed