First Love

chapter 5

Ok usually I don't say anything before. You chapters but I know I haven't updated in a while sorry about that.

August 29
Oh my goodness the school dance is coming Yas! I wonder if I can get angel to ask me to the dance I mean that would be the best thing in my whole entire life, well maybe my whole entire middle school life! I'm going to try to bring it up to him tomorrow I hope he gets the message of me wanting him to ask me to the dance. I mean is that too much to ask for?

August 30
Well let me just say can I get any stupider, well obviously I can! okay so this is what happened I was walking with Angel and I brought up the school dance and I was like are you going and he said I'm not sure and then I'm like are you taking someone? and he said well I don't think I'm going to ask anybody because every time I ask them they say no and then he said I asked you last time during the school dance if you wanted to dance with me and you said no and I'm like you never said that. And then he said yes I did then I said no you didn't and he said yes I did then after that I said no you didn't and then he did something that caught me off guard he said okay then if I asked you to the school dance this time what would you say? and I freaked out I mean I freaked out and said the most stupidest thing in my whole entire life I mean I'm going to regret this my whole life! I said I don't know. I said that in a very very loud way! and then in my head I was like oh shoot! I didn't know how to fix it so I just left it like that and now I don't know what to do I don't think he's ever going to want to ask me again because after that he was like see I told you nobody wants to come with me and I'm just like of course I want to go with you but me being a wimp didn't say that out loud only in my head I mean I could have fixed everything by saying, I meant to say I do want to go. but I didn't ain't I stupid! my gosh I am going to regret this I swear all my friends are going to be making fun of me like I had the chance to go with Angel to dance and I used the words I don't know when he asked me! I mean who is this stupid to loose a chance like this!!!!!!! I just want to cry and cry!

August 31
Annabell and Itzel keep saying that I should call angel but I don't know, I'm scared to call him and I only have 2 days how am my supposed to say that I would want to go with him!? I mean he didn't ask ask he said IF I asked.... Ahhhh once again kill me now!!!!!!