Mafia's Crazy beauty

Fake love (marrige pt 1)

Jimin's pov:

Ok i am really nervous. It is the my last night in my house. I Didn’t even know when 5 days passed. I sighed not wanting to leave taehyung. But i have to. I Couldn't even sleep because of the excitement i have. Finally i am getting married. What will be the feel of me getting married. Will i cry or be happy?

I am so excited. Should i feel happy, excited or feel nervouse,sad. I Don't know but i have to sleep now. Tommorow is my special day and I have to be looked beautiful.

Suddenly i heard a sound on my phone. Looks like someone msg me. I opened the msg and saw it was jungkook's. It says, "jimin don’t be awake sleep or you will sleepy in the morning." "Tommorow is big day for us". Take care bye bye mochi.

I blushed reading this. Oh my god jungkook send me this beautiful msg. I replied, "I will sleep now thank you for the msg. Bye bye jungkook. Good night."

He replied immediately like he was waiting for my msg. He said. "Goodnight to you beautiful."

I leave my phone on my table and slept. Tommorow is my big day. I have to be ready for this.

Jungkook's pov:

He is cute. I msg him knowing that he is nervous. He replied my msg and thanked me. I immediately msg him back. We bid each other Good night and slept.

Next morning:

Jimin's pov:

I woke up before the alarm ring. I sighed. I was too excited that I slept for only 5 hours. I yawed before getting up from my bed. I looked in the mirror. Today I am going to get married. Oh my god.

Mom came into my room. She smiled at me. Jimin, Today is your wedding. I am so happy for you. I know we forced you to get arrange marrige. We are sorry. But jimin the truth is we wanted to get our buisness more wide and jungkook's parents gave us a offer that if you could marry him then they will help us.

It's like a deal to our buisness by marrying you off. Please understand jimin. I said, so, s-so you sold me to them. My eyes escaped a tear. She hold both my hands and softly squeeze it. She was going to cry. She said, jimin my baby. Mom is sorry please forgive us. Please we need your help jiminah baby please. She hold me cheeks while saying that.

I didn’t look at her. I lowered my face and looked at my hands. I faked my smile. I thought mom i could pretend i am happy when I am sad. For you I could pretend I am stronger when I am not.

I smilled at her and said, Mom It's ok. I understood. I will do the marrige so don’t cry. I am like a doll to my parents. For my parents love i became a toy. I didn’t even see if they were using me. Even if they are using me I Don't care. I-I will endure it. A tear slipped through my eyes. Before mom could notice it I wiped it.

She wiped her tears. Mom said, jimin now you should get dressed. Your marrige is after 2 hours. So start getting ready now. She kissed my forehead. I locked the door when she got out. I turned looking at the mirror.

I slipped and sat on the floor. Tears continuously falling from my eyes. I just am a doll. I am not even a human. I do anything for my parents but they never ever appreciate me. Never told me love you. Never loved me.

I suppressed my screams by my hand covering my mouth. Look i can't even cry because my mom dad will know and they will ask me.  I am so pathetic. My heart is paining not because of sickness because of the pain i get from my parents. I just wanted love. Just wanted some care, some attention,some comfort.

Huh.. What the heck is love. It's just all fake love. I fixed myself. Suddenly someone knocked on my door. I opened them i saw there were here to dress me up and do makeup.

I Don't have much time now. I told them to hide my swollen eyes. They did my makeup and wore me a black dress.  Jungkook said he wanted to have black wedding dress so i wear it.

Now it was 30 minutes left. It was a beach side. We love the idea of marrying on the beach. taehyung came to my room and said, "jiminah you look so perfect but without how am i gonna sleep. How am i gonna eat and go shopping?" Tae started to have teary eyes.

I giggled wanted not to cry infront of taehyung. I said, yah alien I did my just makeup now. Do you want me to ruin it by crying huh? Be strong and I will visit you don’t worry. He nodded while wiping his tears.

"If you Won't be strong then how can i be." We hugged each other.

My mom came to my room and said, jiminah you look so perfect. You look so beautiful. Come dear It's time we have to go. I met my father downstairs. Look at him selling his son and not even went to my room and say something to me. Always greedy for money,money and money. I hate him wish i wasn’t born into this family.

I wish jungkook took me somewhere that my parents couldn’t find me. He looke at me and smiled at me. I gritted my teeth and forced a smile. He said, jimin we saw you getting older. You were so small when i saw you. Now look at you you became a such big boy and going to get married today. I am sorry if i did something wrong forgive your appa.

I Couldn't even looked at him. I could cry at any time. I could broke out infront of taehyung. No i can't. I smiled and said. Dad you didn’t do anything wrong. You always loved me. Now this is the time you have to leave me and forgive me if i did something wrong even i loved you whole heartedly without being fake.

I mean faking my love for you. I pressured on the word fake. I want him to relaise that what he did was wrong and i knew that his love no fake love was real. It's crazy when the love is so fake but the hate is so real.

Isn't it crazy love has four words on the other side hate also have four words. So why dad, why did you choose to hate me and not love me. Is this because i am gay or do you think i am not capable of being your son. I thought all this.

Amazing Isn't this? Never ever in my wildest dreams i thought i will marry someone like this. Never thought in my childhood the love is so fake. I thought in this situations two words exists love and hate but no a word name fake love is there. Pretending that he love me when he Doesn't is the most painful thing than hate.

"I wanted to grew a flower which was never going to bloomed." I smile to my father and this is how i fake my smile. Reassuring everyone I am fine when I am not. When i am breaking in inside. When I am about to collapse.

"Love is so mad, you are trying to make me erase myself and want me to be you doll." A tear slipped my eyes.

This how i am. A broken piece of art. You see a painting as perfectionist, ugly, beautiful, broken, fine, good but the inside you don’t even know what I am or how this painting create. That's why i call myself a broken pice of art.

"I wish all my weakness, my tears, my pain, my love for my parents and even me could be erase......"

"Love is so sad that it broke me into pieces.."