Maybe in another universe.

I shouldn't feel this way.

*Glimmers POV*

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As Clove's hand accidentally brushes up against mine even for a moment it catches me off guard. I see her look away from me and directly at the ground, usually she does this when she is nervous, embarrassed, or upset. I assume she is embarrassed.  We get to our lockers and i take a towel out, I glance at Clove who is sitting on the bench drinking water. She looks some what stressed or something, she is super good at hiding her emotions. But after knowing her for so long you figure it out. I sit next to her, I see her freckles, the sparkle in her dark eyes, the loose hair strands by her ears. "What's up with you?" I ask trying to get an honest response. "nothing much, what about you?" She says casually, that would have fooled anyone but me. "Cmon what's wrong?" I say this in a more forward tone, she looks at me and sighs before responding. "My parents are making me go into the hunger games this year." as she says this I can hear she is not confident. I place my hand on her shoulder "Hey It's gonna be okay, you're one of the strongest people i know. If anyone would win it would be you, plus I am volunteering aswell!" I say this, hoping it helps her feel better. 

"Thank you. It .. it means a lot, i'm sorry you have to go as well.." she says. I can hear the fear and sadness in her tone. I don't say anything and I just hug her, we hug for a couple of seconds before i hear a light sniffle and inhale. She's crying..  She really is a kid. I feel so bad but we need to leave soon. I let go and look at her. "You okay? we gotta go home soon but is there anything i can get you?" I ask immediately, I want her to know I actually care. "no thabks..Im uh.. ugh sorry for crying I'm just tired. Tell anyone i just sobbed like that and i swear to god i'll kill you" She says but she smiles as she says that. She's funny, sweet and not at all how people describe her. And she is still that tiny girl who acts mean and tries to be intimidating but i find that absolutely precious about her. I feel a sense of butterflies in my stomach, not bad ones. I immediately shut that out, lord knows what my parents would do if i ever dare to love a woman. I hear my parents words flood into my head "Marry a good rich man." yeah like that's totally what i want. Marriage is like handcuffs, Rich gets rid of the good, and the men here are no good. 

"I promise i won't mention it to anybody." I say this and grin at Clove and she smiles back as we both giggle. "Looks like it is time to go, cmon I'll walk you home!" I offer without thinking, she looks confused but nods her head. We lock up our belongings and go meet up with the group before leaving. I notice Marvel and Cato in the distance and I run over to them, forgetting Clove behind but she quickly catches up. "Hey guys" Cato says and me and Clove say Hello back. We all start walking home, Marvel and Cato are shadow boxing each other. God their so immature, I giggle at this. We get to the stop where Marvel and Cato decide to go home a different path, leaving me and Clove alone. I start walking her home, "soooo, how was the rest of training?" I ask to break the silence, Clove isn't really one to be social. "hm.. it was okay, what about you?" She asks while kicking every little rock she steps over. "It was Pretty fun!" i say, and she smiles to herself. "Good." She says and I smile at her then I look back to the street.

We finally arrive at Cloves house, Her dad opens the door immediately, storming outside and starts shouting. "Clove! you are 15 minutes late!! I will not tolerate this-" I cut him off, "uh sir this is entirely my fault, i am so sorry" I say this, he turns his head to look at me, Clove looks at me and mouths "its okay" but this is not okay. "do not cut me off again. You should go home, now come on Clove you are in massive trouble!" He says this as he grabs Cloves arm and starts pulling her inside, she doesn't say anything but she eventually waves a goodbye at me and i wave a goodbye back. Her dad seems like a total asshole. Probably where she gets the attitude from, I slightly smile about that as I walk home. 

I open my front door as I am 20 minutes late. "Honey! you should have said you were gonna run late! we were worried sick!" My mother says, as she cups my face. I move her hands off my face and I smile a her "sorry mom, I was walking my friend home." I say and she nods her head. My parents are both quite kind, they just expect a lot from me. I sit on the couch next to my dad. "Hi glim, how was training?" My dad says pausing his TV to face me. "Really good!" I say happily, "I heard you walked someone home? you never do that, is it a boy you like? oooo" My dad says intrigued. I shake my head no, "actually, I walked a girl home, I really like her!." I say not realizing how it sounded. my dad's smile goes into a half smile. "You don't have a crush on this girl do you?" My dad says in a urgent tone, i sigh. "I don't know. I got butterflies bout her though." I say this and i feel nothing but shame. My dad's smile is gone now and my mom starts breathing carefully and my dad sighs before placing both his hands on her face. "Glimmer. We told you already, That is wrong. Loving a woman as a woman is not right. I said you are going to marry a rich good man. That is what's best." My dad says this and i hear nothing but disappointment from them both. I nod and say "I know." to them before going up to my room. 

I lay on my bed, the room is pitch black. I am doing nothing but staring at the ceiling with my thoughts. I do not know how to feel about you Clove, god why is this so difficult?! I usually am not this confused by Feelings but I never had to figure it out because of a girl, and let alone my best friend. I shake my head and sigh. Its almost 12am, I turn to my side and close my eyes. I fall asleep in the matter of minutes.