GANGSTER BABY || JUNGKOOK SMUT BOOK ||

DAD'S DECISION

Mariella's POV

"So what have you come here for my darling? Shouldn't you be shopping or something?" My dad came near me and tapped my cheeks.

Last night Jungkook and I got physical with each other. I really cherish whatever happened between us, but things were going out of control. Sometimes I feel, whether this is all right or not. How quickly have things been running in my life? It feels like I'm just standing and my entire life is flying away.

There are moments when I sit and just think of what has happened to my life. From being a university student to a married and then quickly widowed, my life's been a roller coaster and now my childhood friend has returned and not only we are set up for marriage but we even fucked the hell out of each other.

Last night, in the shower, I masturbated so many times thinking of Jungkook. Even though the two of us had made out a bit, but still that craving of having him inside me, it was ignited.

My dad, he is behaving like a person I never knew. I didn't know that he would set me up for marriage so soon. To be honest, even though I liked Jungkook, and I waited for him since he left me, why is my heart still not able to accept it. Why don't I feel assured?

I feel really confused about what I want out of my life. I feel a bit sad about leaving Jungkook there on the bed after what we had last night. But I can't control what's happening to me.

"Dad, stop this marriage." I said

His face turned pale after I said my statement. His lips parted and he quirked his brows at me. "Why?"

I don't know what happened to me and immediately tears welled up in my eyes and instantly I hugged dad. He embraced me softly and caressed my back. "Sweetheart tell me the matter. Did Jungkook do something to you? Why do you feel this way?"

"He didn't do anything dad. It's just that I can't do this."

"What do you mean? Can you explain yourself?" His tone changed.

I tried to control back my tears and decided to say everything to him. He needs to understand my point, he needs to know the kind of mental pressure I am going through.

"Dad, I myself don't know what's happening in my life. One moment I was a happy cheerful girl, tied up with Min Yoongi, a cruel mafia. Slowly I thought maybe with time, our relationship could work. Despite his way of behaving with me and everything, I still tried my best till I got a hint..."

He kept his hands on the table and rested on the chair nicely, listening to me. "You can sit and talk."

"A hint that my childhood love, the one I had been waiting for, he is here. He exists and there could be some possible way to get to him and the moment I had contact with him, my husband had died..."

Tears didn't stop as I narrated my feelings to me. His expressions weren't that sympathetic towards me but I still felt that urge to open my heart before him, to make him know what I was going through.

"So?"

"Yoongi and I didn't share many things, and not even days, so there was a slight bit of remorse when we parted, but then came another shock, that I was now getting married to Jungkook."

"Didn't you just stay you have been longing for him?" He cut me off.

"Circumstances! Dad circumstances were different then, and now it's totally different. That time I wasn't married, I was a free spirited girl, I was in love with him, madly."

"And now?"

"I still love him. I have feelings for him. I don't want to lose him. I want to be with him, but not marrying. Not atleast now."