Lust, Love, Drama-Repeat

Egos clash

It had only been a couple of days since Shaurya and Alina had confessed to each other. Their time spent together was usually after hours. Both of them were spending a lot of time with each other in bed, and it was wearing down on their bodies. 

Shaurya had started feeling a little tired and sleepy in office, which was noticeable to his colleagues as well. On the other hand, Alina had started being late to her shoots and postponing her meetups as well. As the weekend approached, Shaurya thought about asking something to Alina. He was looking forward to meeting her on Friday. 

The day had gone rather busy and in the evening while he was on a coffee break, Shaurya decided to text Alina.
"Hey. Good evening. What's the plan for today? Do I come over to the hotel tonight or something else? Umm...I was thinking of going out to have dinner with you somewhere if you are gonna be free timely?"

He sent the message and saw the delivered sign, but was not expecting Alina to read it right away. Unbeknownst to him, even Alina was about to text him at the very same moment. She read the message almost instantaneously and started typing. 

"Hi Shaurya. Not at the hotel. I am sending you an address in a few. Why don't you meet me there directly? You'll be bringing your bike right? Just drive in through a black gate at the address and park it next to the cars there. I will meet you there directly. And 8 pm sharp. Don't keep me waiting or else you know what I will do..... :)" 

Shaurya saw her message and smiled to himself. There were times when he could feel her headstrong behaviour become an obstruction in their budding relationship. She was almost as headstrong, if not more than him. Regardless, Shaurya decided not to pursue the topic at the moment. 

At about 8 pm he reached the address which Alina had shared and was greeted to a rather spacious bungalow. It was a white and black exterior bungalow located bang in the middle of Bandra West, close to the sea. Shaurya parked his bike in the driveway as Alina directed and stood in front of the gate. He wasn't sure what to do next but he decided to wait for a few minutes. His eyes scanned the area around the house but he could not find Alina anywhere. Unbeknownst to him Alina was sitting in one of the cars and she quietly scooted next to him and tapped his shoulder. 

Shaurya looked at her and was surprised. "Where did you appear from?" he asked. Alina gave a small smile and pulled a pair of keys from her hand bag. "Open the door and lead the way" she commanded him. He took the keys from her and did as directed. 

As they both entered the house, Shaurya saw the interior and was taken back. The house was perfectly furnished and beautiful. He turned towards Alina and saw her locking the door from the inside. Before he could start speaking but, Alina took his hand and lead him up the stairs to the rooms upstairs and pushed him inside one of the bedrooms. Shaurya was not sure what she planned on doing but he was smiling a little. 

What Shaurya was not expecting was Alina to get atop him while he was on the bed corner and grab his hair. Her grip was surprisingly strong and as Shaurya looked up to her, she captured his lips with her own. He had not seen her be this fierce before. His hands were resting on her waist but hers were holding onto his hair tightly. She was leading him in the kiss this time around. 

After what seemed like a lifetime, they finally broke the kiss. Alina started speaking before Shaurya could utter something again - "This is my house in Mumbai. I did not wish to use this house because I never stayed in Mumbai for long. But my life is changing a little and I have a reason to stay here. That's why I got it renovated. So that's why I wanted you to come here today. But Shaurya, I want to say something. I don't know right now what's happening between us and I need time to understand." 

Shaurya was at first smiling but the closing statement made him feel uncomfortable "What do you mean, you don't know?". Alina moved a little away from him - " Shaurya, things are happening a little too fast. At times I want to talk to you and then I feel like why am I becoming dependent on you? Am I loosing myself into you? Do you realise that it's scary to loose yourself into someone and then what if things don't work out?" 

"So, because you are afraid of a What If scenario...maybe due to some past or because of what could be a future, you will ruin the present? I mean, I don't understand what is going on with you all of a sudden?" Shaurya responded. He saw Alina not understand what he was saying as it was visible in her facial expressions and body language. 

"You won't get it. I knew you won't understand where I am coming from. It is not easy for me to like someone or love someone and then see it burn. Shaurya I don't want to start over with someone again or carry this thing about us as a trauma later. That's why I need time. I just invited you tonight so that you know where I will be. But I need you to give me some time and space. I want you to stay informed because I don't want you to stay in the dark." 

"I don't get it...I seriously don't. If you don't want this to happen the way you are thinking it might, but in doing so you end up pushing me away then what exactly is it that you're doing?" Shaurya asked her. Unfortunately he did not get an answer from her. She got up and walked over to the bed and lied down. "I think I will sleep. If you wanna stay you can, otherwise you know the way out." 

Alina shut him off completely and switched off the lights. Shaurya was still not sure what was going on. He could not even comprehend the situation and the events all that unfolded within a matter of like 15-20 minutes. As the darkness of the room shrouded everything and the only thing slightly visible was the outline of Alina on the bed that Shaurya could make out, his eyes started welling up. 

He knew she was sleeping, and he did not wish for her to wake up. But his own emotions were overwhelming him. He was becoming weak again, that too for her. His body started shivering and his legs felt wobbly. He got off the bed and walked over to the side of the bed where Alina was asleep. 

He nestled his head on the side of bed and covered his mouth with his own hands, as his emotions overwhelmed him fully. He started crying but his voice did not come out because he was muffling it with his hands. Seconds became minutes as he kept crying at not just the events, but the uncertainty of where he was. He had no sense of direction in what to do right now, in what was wrong or right. He could feel himself be helpless again and this time it was shattering him from the inside. Alina was not his girlfriend of years. But she meant something to him that mere words weren't able to express. 

Without knowing, Shaurya exhausted himself mentally so much that he passed on that same place on the cold floor, with just his head on the bed. A wet patch had formed because of his tears and caked one side of his face.

At around 6:30 am in the morning, Alina woke up from her sleep and her eyes were met with the sight of Shaurya lying next to her in that position and she realised what she had done. She saw how her words had affected him. "I am sorry Shaurya" she mouthed the words as her own feelings overcame her in that instant. 

[To be continued.......]