I can't do this Alone

Part 18

this part is - Dual pov
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Tim's Pov
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i've been worried about lucy lately she's seemed on edge lately and hasn't seemed right in got a call from angela in the middle of the day saying lucy got called to a abduction case earlier and has been off since so i go back to the station to check on her

Lucy's Pov
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i had worked a case that was very similar to mine earlier and it brought back alot of trauma i'm working at my desk on the case until my chest gets tight and i can't breath i stand up and it just gets worse i speed to the break room but angela grabs my arm and spins my around in the middle of the station
Angela - lucy are you ok
my breathing gets heavier and i shake my head tears pour out of my eyes

i feel like im dying i can feel all the eyes on me
Lucy - angela w-what if there is another caleb
Ang- lucy no their both dead i promise
Lucy - i-i need tim where's tim
Ang - he's on his way

Tim's Pov
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i walk into the station to see lucy having a panick attack in the middle of the station with angela i run up to her
Tim - luce hey lucy i'm her calm down
grey notices what's happening and comes out
Grey - lets go to the break room
me ang grey and lucy go to the break room i sit lucy down and angela gets her water angela tells grey what happened
Grey - somebody is in trouble they know you're not supposed to be assigned to those
Tim - grey calm down please
seeing him all mad isint gonna help lucy seeing her crying into my chest like this -the way she did when she came back alive- the moment i realize that i tear falls down my face i hold her tight " your ok luce your ok"
i can't do it the flashbacks haunt me from that day worse than anything that's ever happened to me
i shut my eyes tightly trying to stop the images from coming she finally calms down he cry slow
30 minutes later..
lucy goes back to work but the flashbacks won't stop i go to my office my hands brace myself on the desk my head falls between my shoulders angela must have seen me storm off cause she enters the room and i feel a soothing hand rub my back " tim are u ok" i don't even realize i'm crying i sit down at my desk " no" i say softly , i blink away the tears threatening to fall "what wrong lucy's ok i promise"   " ang i get flashbacks from that day"  " and seeing her like that triggered them" i nod " it haunts me ang"  " tim that day you called me in i was gonna tell grey you weren't in any shape to work that case because you weren't. but i saw the worried and the relief when you saved her time you saved her, tim i watched you fall in love with lucy that day "   " how'd you realize " he says his voice breaking " i've never seen you so soft and vulnerable for somebody i could see it in your eyes the way you held her you would have done anything to ensure she was ok "
i stand up and walk over to angela pulling her into a tight hug " tim you need to talk to lucy about that day"   " i don't wanna hurt her"    " tim it's not talking about it that hurts her it's the fear of it happening again that does and i know for a fact she feels safe around you " i nod