adopted by Wilbur soot (Y/n x Wilbur adoption au)

Christmas special.

TW: cutting, panic attack.

Y/N POV:

I get up and realize its Christmas. I wasn't expecting to get anything. I put my binder on, then I put a hoodie and sweats on. I walk downstairs to see Niki and Wil on the couch. 'Damn, no snow this year." I mumble to myself. "Nope." I hear Wil say. Niki smiles and gives me a wave. I smile and give her a wave back. I walk over to the couch and sit next to Wil. "So I'm going to be honest with you, I didn't know what you wanted for Christmas so..." Wil says giving me $500, 'woah, this is way to much." I say. "It's fine kid, go hangout with your friends and spent the money, I don't care when, just not today, I wanna hangout me you and Niki." Wil says, I give him a soft nod, "okay." I say.

'Tommy, the kid who was there when I adopted you." Wil says, I nod showing I know who he was talking about. "yeah, he might try and see if he can come over, I might have him and like two others come over, if they do you will like them." Wil says, I give him a soft nod trying not to show the panic I felt. "well, I might try and see if I can fall back asleep, I woke up at like 1 and could not fall back asleep." I mumble. wakking back upstairs.

I go to my room and lay down, I put on the polar express, I also put the money on my bedside table. I remember to take my binder off, I take it off on kinda throw it somewhere near my bed. I close my eyes and fall asleep.

( THE TW'S WILL BE IN THIS PARAGRAPH ONLY THIS ONE, BOTH TWS)
I wake up to my door being closed again, then I hear footsteps going down the stairs, I recognized as Wils . I didn't think much of it until it hit me, "shit, shit shit." I mumble to myself. I look at the binder on my floor, he definitely saw it. tears prick at my eyes. "Fuuuuck." I mumble to myself. The stress was eating me alive, I was tp stressed out for this, I grab my blase and go over to the bathroom. I start  cutting my wrists, the stinging pain was nice, and the blood that was rushing down my arms just felt so nice, I liked the adreniline it made me feel, I love how it took my mind off stuff. I kinda blacked out but the next thing i knew was that I was being snapped back to reality from my ears ringing and I had 25 thin some deep some shallow cuts on each wrist. I slide my wrists under cold water. I role my sleevs down once most of the bleeding stopped, I rinsed the sink to make sure no blood was left, I also rinsed my blade to make sure it doesn't get rusty. I quickly walk over to my room and start wrapping my wrists, I made a mental note to buy some bandages and bandaids when I went shopping. Once I finished I went over to my bed, my ears were still ringing but weren't as bad as before. The memories rush back into my head. I start going into a wicked bad panic attack, it was hard to breath, I was crying, and the room felt like it was getting smaller and smaller. I don't even realize when Wil comes into my room, I feel him hug me. I look at him, "You...aren't...mad...at  me?" I ask between sobs and atempst to breath. "No, I'm not, don't think I would ever be mad at you for being trans or non bianary." He says, calming me down.

After the panic attack I just had, will kept me in the hug. there were dryed up tears that staned my cheeks. "thank you..." I mumble falling asleep in his arms.

WILBURS POV:

I feel Y/n fall asleep in my arms. I gently pick them up and put them in their bed. "Goodnight." I whisper before heading downstairs. I sit on the couch next to Niki. "what the hell...?" I ask myself, Niki looks at me worried. "Y/N thought I was mad because they? wore a binder." I say looking at Niki, "why did they sound like a question?" Niki asks. "They couldn't tell me at first, then when I got them calmed down I didn't have enough time to ask before they fell asleep. so right now I'm rolling with the safest pronouns." I say, I lean my head on Nikis shoulder, "That kid has been through some shit..." I mumble to Niki.