omg my uncle gave me some throwing stars because he thinks i would like them, but right now i'm in my room fighting the urge to cut. things aren't even that bad, i mean my sister is being a brat, and my mom and dad keep yelling at me for little to no reason, but i'm fine. i gotta be. some of my friends are in the grade above me bc theyre older and stuff, but they gotta go to health instead of gym for the 2nd semester. ima be alone bc i don't have many friends in my gym and i'm so frickin scared i almost get a panic attack just thinking about it. i wanna cry so bad, but im so numb that i can't. i always feel like something is fricking wrong with me. i just wanna be normal and not have to worry about my weight and cutting and trying not to be boring and trying to keep my friends. i just wanna be happy again. wth happened like i was so happy before 3rd grade. i was so sad in all the grades after that. so bad that when i was in some club and a teacher asked why i hadn't been getting any hours done, i broke down. unprovoked. like i was so startled by the fact that somebody had asked if i was okay that i instantly broke down crying.
anyways ignore this, i just really needed to get it out and writing has always been my release. i've been clean for a month now, so i'm trying to do my best.
YOU ARE READING
venting bc idk where else to
Randomhi do ignore, someone i follow did this and i hope they don't think i copied them, the problem is it's getting bad again. art is not mine, if you know who, send me a message :/
