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"do you still love me?" - Renee Rapp

Renee is a god send

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I was watching Renee from the side of the stage, cheering her on. I always come to her concerts cause that's what good girlfriends do, but lately, Renee has been distant or distracted by something and her fans have seen it too. her Twitter, Instagram, and TikTok notifications have been blowing up recently, with videos and pictures of proof that she has been distant. the videos and pictures containing her leaving me to be on her phone or rejecting my hand or hug, I don't know what I've done wrong or said for her to be like this. I bought her flowers yesterday and she just left them on our coffee table, the vase still in the kitchen. I sigh. looking at Renee when she is performing is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen, the way she sings with such raw emotion. she used to look over at me, backstage, and maintain eye contact while singing some parts of songs that she thinks look like me. That's the Renee I know and love but I'm starting to get a feeling that I might not be the one she loves. She sang 3 songs: Pretty Girls, Talk Too Much, and Tattoos, but not once did she look my way or give me a wink. once she started the 4th song my eyes started to wheld up. is this how it will end? is she going to break up with me? I started to question everything. I was brought out of my thoughts when I felt a hand on my shoulder, I turned around to see a man in baggy jeans and a knitted sweater, my eyes still having a clear coat of blurriness from the crying. "Are you okay?" he asked me gently. " yeah. I'll be fine, thank you" I said shakily. he takes hold of my shaking hands, my still trembling state, I take another glance at Renee and break down in this stranger's arms. after about 6 minutes of crying, I started to catch my breath, my eyes found this man's eyes, and I just repeatedly apologized for the way I was acting. he just kept saying it was fine and was just making sure I was okay. I didn't know anything about this man not even his name and he still made sure I was okay. I thought to myself how rude was I being here with him for 3 minutes not crying and I didn't thank him, "Oh so rude of me, thank you and your name?" I asked with a smile, "Welcome, and my name is Sam. Nice to meet you?" he said dragging out the end. "oh sorry my name is Y/n" I said now looking for Renee, she should be on break now. he looks at me puzzlingly "Are you okay?" putting his hand on my knee making sure I'm not going to hysterically cry again, my eyes catch his and there are a few seconds of silence until I answer with a nod. at this point, I had the attention of a few people, but the Renees manager walked up to me handing me a glass of water. he kneeled in front of me "You okay y/n?" he said with worry in his voice "I'm fine now, thank you?" I said while trying to clear my throat discreetly, and failing miserably, I took the glass of water still looking for Renee. I heard her laugh. She abruptly stopped laughing, and my head turned to where I heard them from to see the piercing eyes of Renee, my heart began racing to see her staring at me like that. She hadn't noticed me for weeks maybe months, and now she was staring right at me, but when my head stopped spinning for a second her eyes were more trained on something else. sam. his hand still on my knee. That's what she was staring at. She flew towards us, taking my hand and dragging me away. I swiftly turn my head to mouth a sorry to Sam. She pulls me into the stairwell, I'm getting angry one minute she acts as if I don't exist then she is possessive of me. "what are you doing?" I whisper-yell as the stairwell echoes, not wanting people to hear us. "what am I doing, what are you doing" she yelled not even trying to quiet her tone, "he was consoling me, I was crying. not like you noticed" I said my voice barely above a whisper near the end of my sentence. her eyebrow cocked like I said something completely outrageous, and she just scoffed. I decided to say the question that I'd been worrying about for the past month, "Do you still.. love me?" my voice cracking at the end trying not to cry, her face became soft and her eyes filled with tears "Of course I love you", I break into tears, covering my mouth trying to silence my sobs. her arms wrap around me, holding me tightly. I bring my head up and connect my lips to hers, "then why have you been distant?" I said the second our lips disconnected, she looked defeated, she just looked into my eyes "Management wanted me to do a PR, and I had to fight with them to cancel it, but I didn't want you to know and worry, I couldn't be close to you and not tell you so I distanced myself and I'm sorry if that made you dought my love for you,...... because I love you deeply." the second she stopped talking my hands grabbed her face and kissed her so deeply that I got dizzy with the lack of oxygen that my brain was getting. "from now on i will be here, here with you" she said with promise. from that point forward Renee was there, with me. I loved her so deeply that she needed to feel it in her bones.

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ilove Renee Rapp and i love y'all 

night my lovelies <33