needles and pinches

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i stumbled upon georgia's "needles&pinches" one night during a bitter ruin fever (you should check out both hers and the duo's songs, they're magnificent). i know the pain of losing a child, an unborn child, having seen it in my ma many years ago, when i was still too young to understand grief. the circumstances are wildly different; my ma had to give up my younger sibling because we weren't financially capable of nurturing another child, and this song deals with a miscarriage, but somehow the loss and the lingering heaviness of it all struck me the same, hence this story.when i write this, i feel like i can depict the situation rather truthfully from an outsider, or perhaps a family member's point of view, but not through the eyes of the actual child-bearer. the emotions and agony are simply unfathomable, if you have not experienced it yourself. so there shall be a tonne of inaccuracies and some parts may sound stilted, empty even. right now i have no remedy for those mistakes, but if you are willing, please share your criticism in the comments.thank you very, very much.