Tunes Of Regret - ✭ Steve Lacy /W.I.P/

Spite and Jealousy

"His name is Steve. Steve Lacy"

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"That's his name?" I question Hayden if he was being serious or not. It's not that I'm saying his name is bad but, it's a name Im not used to hearing usually. "Yeah, I'm serious" Hayden answers my question. I turn to look at Allison, and I can see that she seems interested in his friend now as well.. we haven't even seen what he looks like yet and she's already drooling over him! This isn't fair. Why is Allison always being so nosy and taking all the fun away from me? It's getting really annoying now.

I shouldn't be jealous, he's definitely more fitting for her I bet. Shes definitely his type unlike me. I'm a train wreck, I'm no-fit to be anybody's partner. I start to overthink and doubt myself of being worthy of love due to my past failed relationships. "He's a famous singer ya' know!" Hayden utters. I was quite shocked by what he said. Famous singer? Is.. he serious? I can't believe IM the one getting set up with a famous singer? Hayden really does have strong cables.. friendship cables.

Allison starts to eye me down with a hint of jealousy added, she doesn't seem to be happy nor thrilled that I'm probably going on a date with a famous musician. What's going on is that , In her mind she thinks she's clearly the one that's better off on a date with him, not me. I clear my throat before speaking up. "Really? I never heard of him" I utter and smiling awkwardly, then Hayden's eyes widen.

He seems shocked that I haven't heard of this famous singer before, that's his friend. How could I not even know? I really am living under a rock aren't I?. Hayden scoffs "What?" Hayden utters and furrows his eyebrows. "You really haven't heard of him before? Damn" He mutters out as he scrolls through his phone for a bit. "Here, this is what he looks like" he grins before showing us a picture of said singer. My eyes widen, I couldn't believe my eyes.

Oh my god. he's so.. he's so. What's the word? Pretty? Handsome? Everything at this point. I can't believe I'm going to get set up with him! I have to look my best if it ever happens. He seems like an amazing person to be around with. Oh my god. My thoughts were racing here and there, it was all over the place! I couldn't think right. is it going to work? Is it not? Is this going to work out? Is it not? To be set up on a date with this man? I can't believe it. It feels unreal. It feels so fake at this point!

Allison also saw the picture of him, she seems surprised too. She rests her head on her hand. She seems to be in-love with him as well. As all of this was going on, I continue to wander off in my thoughts. I feel that I finally will have a partner.. that's loving, caring, and kind.. unlike the others who treated me so poorly and unfair. "Happy?" Hayden gives a soft smile to me after seeing how I was acting.

He sets his phone down on the table and turns it off. He crosses his arms, resting it on the table and leaning himself forward a little. He takes a sip of his Caramel Macchiato. "Very happy" those were the only words I could muster up at the moment. Oh the thought of him treating me better than the rest.. it's all feeding into my delusion eventually. "When can we meet?" I ask Hayden, delighted about all of this. Allison roles her eyes in annoyance from me being all giddy and filled with happiness.

Hayden chuckles and turns on his phone. "Maybe in a week or so, don't get too excited though" I grin widely from hearing Hayden's plans for me and his friend. This all is feeding into my future delusion which is probably not healthy but who cares! As long as I get to feel better about myself for once, after all of the heartbreak and lies I've gone through. Hayden seems a bit busy on his phone, I wonder what he's doing.