Lyrics Of A Libra

Grey Matter

6/30/2019 7:22 P.M.  

Theme Song: Maye - Tu

I'm caught in grey matter 

Scared of getting my heart shattered 

Pushing people away 

Before they leave voluntarily 

Every day is an inner battle 

Proving my worth 

Trying to self-medicate the internal scars 

That caused my heart's hurt 

I foundation my doubts with my smile 

Conceal my hurt with laughter

I can't really remember the last time I've actually been happy 

Constantly repeating the last chapter 

I'm scared of love 

Never really knowing what it was

I'm scared of losing the one I love most

Scared of showing my vulnerability

To this day I still don't understand why he cares for me 

These walls are suffocating 

Damaging 

And I just want to break them but I'm scared to 

Scared that if I give my full heart 

If I let down my guard

I'll end up losing in this game of love

You surround my thoughts 

I can't function if you're not here 

I'm in love with you and that scares me 

The reason why the others never worked 

The reason why I don't work is because you're not by my side

In your arms, I feel warmth 

In your arms, I feel safe

Nothing can harm 

You've always been able to charm me 

You see through my lies 

I can't hide from you 

No matter how badly I may want to

I'm scared of hurting you 

I'm scared of hurting me 

I'm not the perfect angel that people want me to be 

I second-guess myself 

I wonder about your image of me

How do you see me in your eyes

Am I a hidden treasure? 

A goddess from the skies?

Teach me how to love because I no longer know-how 

In more ways, I feel numb

Until you invade my space