Teen Romance - Tom Kaulitz

Chapter 3

As I was getting ready for school I heard my parents yelling at each other. Now I don't wanna go downstairs. They always argue, non stop, but then other days they love each other, because they go smoking together that's it. I get scared when my dad is mad, he starts throwing stuff, hitting me and my brother. Which is why I don't wanna go downstairs.

I wore some low rise jeans again and a tank top with a jacket over it, of course. I love this outfit, it showed a little bit of my hips and my belly ring. I decided to try something new and put on some makeup. I actually like this, putting on some makeup wasn't so bad. I look good.

Not long after I went down the stairs quietly, I was behind Liam. "They're gone!" He looks at me. "Oh okay, hurry up, we're gonna be late!" I pushed him a little. "Okay okay chill you're gonna make me fall!" He pushed my hands of him. We both got out the door and walked to school, I saw Bill getting in the bus. I wanted to wave at him but he's mad at me.

▪︎▪︎▪︎▪︎▪︎

I walked in school, Bill wasn't here waiting for me like he always did. He was walking with Ellie, caring for her, he had his arm around her waist. Why is he caring for her, she lied to him. Fuck her.

I walked in and heard people laugh. And when I mean people I mean Tom and his friends. What were they laughing about??. I look at them and see Tom whispering to them while looking at me? "Alia you look like a clown with that makeup!!" Tom laughs. Oh. Do I really? No I don't, stop believing them Alia!.

"Hey don't listen to them, you look good with the makeup!" This girl next to me said. "You think so?" I looked at her. "Yeah! By the way I'm Emma! And you're Alia right!?" She says. "Oh well thank you! And yeah I am!" This is awkward. "So I heard rumors about you being a slut and sleeping with different men, is that true??" She asked. Gosh I hate when people ask me that. "No it's not true, they're just rumors, and I would never do that!" I said.

"Oh okay! But why does Tom bully you a lot??" She asked me. Emma asks too much questions it's getting me mad. "Oh cause he believes the rumors and because I'm friends with his brother!" Can she just shut up. I hate when people talk to me, other than Bill but since he won't talk to me then right now I just wanna be alone.

They kept throwing me paper and telling me to open them. Some of them said "take that makeup off bitch" or "you fucking clown" and "fat clown". I wanted to cry, I should've never put some makeup on.

I went to the bathroom and locked my self in a stall. I took out my razor I had in my pocket. 3 cuts on each arm, I cut myself 6 times. I felt a little bit more relaxed and relieved. I cleaned myself up with toilet paper, blood was still leaking. I kept the paper on my arm just incase. I got out the stall washed my hands too take some blood off that were on fingers and looked at myself in the mirror.

It was making me feel worse and wanting to hurt myself again. I see what Tom sees, a fat clown. That's what I am. I hate Tom. I'm never wearing makeup again to school. I look ugly.

TOM'S POV:

I felt bad for saying that to Alia, calling her a clown. She doesn't look like a clown, she looks beautiful with the makeup and without. I want to apologize but she probably doesn't want me near her. I'm such a dick head I need to stop bullying her.

•••••

I walked out of class and went to my next one. I don't know if Bill would actually want to talk to me but at least I have Georg and Gustav. I sat down and Bill wasn't here.
"Hey have yall see Bill?" I asked them both. "He said he won't be in class today!" Georg shrugged. "Oh, it's cause I need to talk to him!" I said. "We should go find him!" Gustav says. "Okay!" I grabbed my bag. We all left the classroom before the teacher came in.