~Fading~ [original story]

Day 4

Everything was faint in my dream. I could feel the memories I gained slipping away slowly.  I had already figured that everytime Caine realized I was experiencing a memory he would inject me with the same drug that made my memories leave. I hadn't realized it the past 2 days I was with him, but I could no longer trust him.  I thought he might have pitied me in the least, but he was just faking affection so I wouldn't break his trust.

"Is your mind on something?" I heard his calm voice ask as we walked forward. I had been lost in thought for a while, I had waken up in his arms like in the cliche movies that I used to watch with my sister. I noticed, I still remembered my sister. He must have injected me with just a bit of the drug, then. That would make since- because maybe he did feel some type of affection for me. Even if it was just frienship.

"Oh- uh... Nothing.. I was just.. I was wondering.. Where are we headed to?" I asked, trying not to stumble over my words, but I did which made me sound even more fragile than I was already.

"To your sister." He simply replied. "Do you want to take a break? we can rest and eat."

We sat down and ate the food he had. Usually we ate in silence, but this time he seemed like he wanted to say something. I looked at him with what I hoped would be an encouraging look.

"get used to this." Was all he said until he saw the confusion on my face. "They will come for you monthly to collect your memories. I will always be your guide." He said, as if the last part would actually please me.. Or maybe it did... I didnt speak after that.

We began travelling again, and before I knew it I was standing before my house. I said my goodbye's to Caine, hoping I wouldn't have to see him anytime soon. I walked in to see Sayla in tears. They were thick and worried, until she saw me, and the worried expression became anger and happiness all mixed into one.

"Juliet!" She screamed, wrapping her skinny arms around me and rubbing her face inside my shoulder. "Why'd you leave?! Where were you?!" she snapped at me.

I winced at the tone she used in her voice. Hatred for the first time, especially directed to me. Wait, this wasn't the first time at all...

"I.. I can't explain.. Someone told me they could give my memories back.. I did it for you, I wanted to know what type of sister I was to you." I lied, I was only thinking about me.. It was selfish, but outside of the memories that still floated in my head, I didn't know anything about the twin standing before me and holding me so I wouldn't leave again.

"It's going to be a blizzard again! I was so worried!" Sayla said, she was calmed, but tears wouldn't stop streaming down her face, staining it with sadness.

This hurt me, to see her cry. I had 5 short memories of her, but seeing her cry pained me. An emotion I haven't personally felt yet..

Later, we both bathed and ate dinner  while talking about foolish things. The little details that only seemed important around her. Things I wouldn't care to listen to if it were coming from any other person but Sayla.

She went to bed early and told me I could stay up if I wanted. I sat in front of the computer, it was nice and seemed brand new. I spent the next few hours researching memory loss, but found nothing that I was experiencing. My sister was sleeping soundly the whole time I typed and clicked and read. It was around 10 PM when I got off. I still hadn't changed into pajama's, so when the doorbell rang I answered it without any hesitation. I forgot her one rule by the time I saw who it was.

Caine was standing outside of the now open door, shivering. He was about to pass out- or so it looked. "Help.." He gasped, stumbling in. His lips were tinted blue and his hands were a dark shade of pink. His hair was soaked and glistening with snowflakes that rested peacefully until he shook his head out.

"C-caine?!" I asked harshly, keeping my voice low.

"Bath.." he breathed out. "I need a bath.. I'll die at this rate.." He interrupted me as if I never said anything. maybe he just couldn't hear. The wind had been strong and the snow was only getting thicker at this point.

I had started a warm bath for him and readied some of grandpa's old clothing. It took a long time to find because I couldn't use my memories to help me search for the clothing, but I managed to do it and had it ready for Caine on the counter in the bathroom.

I waited patientily in the kitchen for Caine after messily putting my hair in a braid that hung infront of my shoulder. I didnt remember how, but my hands did and moved almost automatically.

He came out with soaked hair and the clothes I gave him hung a little loose, but he looked so much warmer now and it looked comfortable... He looked normal.

"Why are you staring?" He asked me, sitting next to me.

My face heated, I must have been blushing and my heart thumped. "Ah.. you.. you look like a normal teen now.. Is all..." I said, hiding my face.

"Are you catching a fever?" He asked, completely unaware that I was blushing, not getting sick. I just nodded at his words.

"You can stay here tonight, I saw a guest bedroom while wandering around here, so make yourself comfortable. I'll think of some lie to tell my sister when she wakes up and sees you.." I told him calmly.

I led him to the guest room, feeling quite normal now. He looked normal and I was able to treat this like my living place already. Normal was the last thing I was, though, It was hard to admit.

After putting him to sleep, I fell asleep as well. Thinking about being normal was the last thing on my mind now. I couldn't imagine how long it would stay at the back... Not forever.