Ghost of You | a Twilight Fanfiction

2 - Gone

Two years ago

I sigh watching the plane fly overhead, thinking to myself, this is it. I'm leaving behind everything I've ever known. I'd headed to college in a big town far away from here...away from my friends, away from my family, away from him.

The sound of my mother's sobs fills my ears, "I'm so proud of you baby. We're going to miss you so much." She cries out, pulling me into another bear hug. "I'm only finishing my last two years over there, I'll be back before you know it, Mama." I softly say the sound of my voice muffled by my mother's sniffles.

I knew leaving was going to be hard on my parents. As their only child, they have devoted all of their time and energy to me and my life, and now as I get ready to finally fly from the nest, it's becoming apparent how close-knit of a family we truly are. "Promise to call every day." She pleads, my dad patting her on the shoulder, pulling her toward him gently, just enough to allow air to fill my lungs again, "Now Missy, she's gonna need to live her life. She can't do that calling you every thirty minutes."

I stifle a laugh, "I'll call, Ma. I promise." "You know, you don't have to leave just because of him..." She adds softly. She doesn't dare mention his name either. "Ma...You know this is something I need to do." She gives me a sad smile as I step away from her, only to be engulfed in a hug from my dad.

My dad, John Holt, a policeman for nearly 30 years, never lets his emotions get to him, today was different though. He hugged me tight. I should smell his aftershave, a scent of comfort for my whole life. "You be careful Juju." I choke back a sob at the sound of my childhood nickname. "I will, Daddy." He pulls back, giving me a quick kiss on the forehead. "You call if you need anything. Even if it's to say you've changed your mind and want to come home."

"I'll be home for all the holidays, and the two years will be over before you know it!" I give them both one last hug, before turning around to make my way through the airport terminal, carrying my suitcase filled with all my belongings. The weight of it feels heavier than ever, symbolizing the weight of the decision I've made. As I walk, I can't help but glance back one last time, hoping to catch a glimpse of familiar faces among the crowd. But all I see are strangers rushing past, oblivious to the internal struggle I'm facing.

Taking a deep breath, I remind myself why I made this choice. It's a chance to break free from the path that I'm predestined to take..as a daughter of Melissa Black-Holt, I'm destined to stay in LA PUSH until I return to the ground. Much like my cousin, Jacob. This is me breaking those cycles, much like my older cousins did before me.

But as I step onto the plane, the reality of leaving behind everything I've ever known begins to sink in. I feel the tears forming in my eyes. I swallow the emotions I'm feeling, making my way to my window seat. LA Push is home. I know one day I'll return, but when every corner reminds me of him, I know it's time for me to get away...it's hard to even utter his name without feeling a pang in my chest. He's gone now. At least the man I once knew.

I check my phone once more, scrolling through the few texts I had received wishing me luck on the next chapter of my life, I continue to scroll subconsciously hoping there would be a text from him.. hoping he would have at the very least texted to tell me goodbye. But of course, I got my hopes up for nothing...again. The man I fell in love with was long gone & I was holding on to the ghost of him.

As the plane ascends, I watch as the familiar landscape of Washington fades into the distance. The towering trees, the serene beaches, and the comforting familiarity of home become smaller and smaller until they're nothing more than a blur.

With each passing minute, I feel a mix of excitement and apprehension. The unknown awaits me, and I can't help but wonder if I'm making the right choice.

Although scared, I refuse to let fear hold me back. This is my chance to redefine myself, to chase my dreams, and to create a future that's solely mine. I may be leaving behind people, like my parents, and my cousin, Jacob, but I carry their love and support with me, like a beacon guiding me through the unknown.

As the plane continues its journey, I close my eyes replaying the events that have transpired over the last few weeks.

Everyone swore he and I were perfect for each other. Soulmates...until one day we weren't. It was like he had changed overnight. He had always been quick to anger, but it was different somehow. He began to ignore my calls, and my texts and even canceled all the plans we had made.

- - -
"What do you want me to do?" He asks, his voice showing the clear annoyance of having to have this conversation with me. "I want you to stop acting like this. I feel like I don't know who you are. You won't even answer the door when I go by your place"

"I'm me." Those two words set a fire inside me. Me? He hasn't acted like himself in weeks.

I laugh, "You've got to be kidding me. You have changed overnight. You think I haven't heard that you're hanging out with Sam now? Following him around like a puppy. You swore you'd never act like that."

"I know more now. More than you will ever understand. This is what I was meant for!" The anger is clear in his voice as it echoes through the phone. "You're just like him!! You're doing the same thing he did to Leah!" I scream, before hanging up, quickly tossing my phone across the room.

- - -

With newfound determination, I open my eyes and gaze out of the window once more. The plane soars through the clouds, carrying me towards my future. And as I watch the world below, I can't help but feel a sense of hope and excitement. This is it. This is the beginning of my journey, and I'm ready.