What's Done in the Dark - G!P [CONVERT]

Ch2

Jisoo P.O.V

You ever met someone who's in love with their best friend/ fuck buddy? Cuz that does happen a lot, So I'm sure you have, but did said best friend/ fuck buddy happen to be in a relationship and won't end it for their best friend/ fuck buddy? No, this is your first time hearing of this? Well let me welcome you to my hell.

My best friend, Jennie Kim, is lying between my legs asleep. It's like 10 o'clock and I just want to lie like this forever. But I can't because Jennie has a fucking girlfriend. A girlfriend who's never home, never there for her, cheated on her and I doubt really loves her. How could you want to stay away from her? She's perfection. She's everything anyone could ever want or need. I just don't get it

What's wrong with me? Why can't she just dump Hyun-ji and be with me? I mean, she's a whole lot cooler after living out here but she's kinda a douche. She's a total player, which honestly shocked me, because hello it's Hyun-ji Freaking Shin. I used to like her until I found out she cheated on Jennie. Now I just want to hit the little hobbit bitch with my car!

Jennie is the real reason Chaeyoung and I didn't work out. I've been in love with Jennie since we were teenagers but I was too afraid to do anything about it. Then I found myself falling for Chaeyoung and I was just happy she felt the same and we went for it. But Chaeyoung knew I was in love with Jennie and that's why she dumped me. She knew if I ever wanted to be happy, I needed to be with Jennie. So when we broke up, I decided I was going to tell Jennie how I felt, but she told me she was dating Hyun-ji so I didn't say anything.

Then I waited. I figured they weren't anything serious so I could wait. When Hyun-ji cheated the first time I thought that was my shot, but no. Then the second time I knew she'd dump her ass but once again she took her back. Then the third, but I think you can figure out how that ended.

They took their little breaks every time she cheated but that never lasted more than a day or two. And now it's been six years. Six fucking years! And they're still together. I just don't get how she could come here, fuck me and then go back to Hyun-ji. They don't even act like a couple...they act more like friends. Yeah they say 'I love you' or whatever but they really don't act like a couple. Like when Hyun-ji introduces Jennie it isn't 'this is my girlfriend Jennie' it's just 'this is Jennie' and whenever we go out Hyun-ji would leave Jennie and go dance with the first skank she saw. They don't even hold hands in public because Hyun-ji claims she doesn't like PDA.

Seriously if I had Jennie I would be proud to show her off to the world. I wouldn't want a minute away from her and I would rush home to her every night, but she doesn't want that with me. She doesn't want to be happy...or at least happy with me. Even though we do this it's not like I'm her secret girlfriend, No we're just fuck buddies. But I would be her secret girlfriend if she wanted so I could have something more with her than just sex and her friendship.

Jennie and I act like more of a couple than those two. I open doors for her, we hold hands down the street- when she lets me hold her hand, she says we look too much like a couple so we don't do it a lot-, I take her to expensive restaurants, and I rub her feet after a long day. I do all the things Hyun-ji should be doing but she doesn't. And Jennie doesn't even realize that I'm not doing this just because we're fucking or because she'd my best friend. It's because I actually care about her.

We've been doing this behind Hyun-ji's back for a while and I still haven't told her how I feel. Ugh I wish I would stop being such a pussy and tell her how I feel. But I'm so afraid I'll lose her all together, so I act like I want them to fix things so she won't think I'm actually in love with her.

I feel her moving around and then she sits up and looks at me. She gives me a sleepy smile and then moves up to lie on her stomach with her head on my chest. I stroke her hair and I fall asleep.